mY HistorY

2006-01-24T04:05:00.000-08:00

I'm closing this blog down for good.I realize that a blog is for friends of the bloggers to read.and now ive just realized,i dont have friends.

When i needed them,they were never EVER there for me.
and when they needed me,i always tried to be there.but they pushed me away
when i try to hang with another one?they say i neglect the them.
In the end,all are hating me because they think i am unloyal and prefer the other.
And now they bitch me,and they ditch me.
And acquaintances think im a BITCH.

FUCK YA'LL.
I'm not taking another piece of ur shit!I'm SICK.
of being treated like a nobody,misused.
taken advantage of.

Ive already cried enuff tears...
felt enuff pain/.
I HATE you guys!

u always ALWAYS BLAME ME. When i did nothing and when i tried to help U!
all the time,i tot it was me.
that i was the lousy friend.
but i was wrong.I did everything in my will and ability to make us better friends.
I'm tired..so very tired.

and with that.Good ridance assholes.

2006-01-21T04:09:00.000-08:00

I'm supposed to be doing my art hmrk now,But.I'm not in the mood.The whole day has been a drag.I've just been sitting around the house,on the internet or trying to finish my art,which never seems to get done.
I really can't wait to get to America.I'm just totally sick of life here.Each day passes by so quickly.

U wake up,early in the morning,and when u reach home frm school,all tt's in ur head will be tomorrow.The weekdays pass by fast.And den the weekends.The most precious days of the week.The rest days.Friday u get home and den ur excited abt tomorrow,saturday.On saturday,u try to finish up ur hmrk,and den u'll be thinking abt Sunday,how its last day of ur break.And u noe days past fast.And den Sunday....U'll be thinking tomorrow,ive got to start working again.And everyday,u fear,the next day.And never really living in today.

I spend 12 hours in school everyday.Its crazy.It's unfair.Yet,that is how s'poreans live.Life has loss its meaning,the joy,laughter.The big things,the adventures.It's like theres nothing to look forward to.It's just like tt.

You go to school,come home,bathe and watch some tv,eat and den hmrk.And everyday its like tt.

Its such a waste of....Life.Time.Time is Life.Every second u get older.Every moment is so precious.Yet on Monday,we can't wait till the weekdays end.And on weekends u fear the coming weekdays.Al in all....we throw time away.

Maybe u can say...Well,the day was good.We made sum jokes,we laughed.We played..Yes but,look,fully from the outside view.Our lives are one straight line,that leads to no where.occasionally there comes a dip,but a tiny one it is.

All i can think about...is work.School.That's all that's been happening in my life.And i feel very very sad.As it is,its too much to take.And den i think abt the future,the younger generations.Wouldn't it be worse?It drving ppl nuts.We're not robots.We have feelings,we need rest,we need to play.We need to get out there..and be more relxed and flexible.Not a time-tabled life,full of classes..one after another.

I feel as tho ive missed out so much in life.Things i cld've done.I feel very sad abt it.
My sister was in P1 last year and she had already begun learning timetables...which ppl my age learnt in p3.

All i can do..is try to hold on to every moment..treasure even the singlest sensation of fun and relaxation.When i can just live in today.

2006-01-19T21:31:00.000-08:00

Yesterday Nite,my fever just kept on going up and up.I wld take the ice pack and for 1 minute in wld go down by 0.1 and the next it went up by like 0.5.This morning i went to the doc again,it was 39.5.And my blood pressure was very low.Doc said 2 virus attacked me at the same time. And he said if the fever kept going higher and higher,i wld have to go to hospital tomorrow. 39.5 was very dangerous and high.Then my mom told the doc. to go on with the blood test.On the spot.I always go to Raffles.Near my house. And my mom trusts the private clinics beta.
i kept crying and crying.The doctor asked me to lie down and he kept tapping my arm to find the blood vessel.He said my blood vessel very stubborn.He said cause my brain knew that blood was gonna be taken out so it sort of..."hid itself".My brain stopped the blood flow in tt hand.He gave me this stuff toy to squeeze so the blood wld flow..but i cldnt even hold it.My reflexes are too fast man.He kept exercising my hand and FINALY the blood wld flow.SO pain!

He took out like 2 bottles full.He said the results wld be out later at 5pm.

Den all of a sudden i felt like fainting.Den all of a sudden this notion came to me.Listen to Pastor Prince message.SO i got my sis to call my dad to put the cd.And i listen and feel asleep.God performs miracles when we rest.When i awoke,my fever was still high..38.9.I took out the cd...and imagined Jesus on the cross...his head hot with fever,the pierce in his hands..his throat sore,him on the cross,who bore my sickness.Straightaway i sweat and sweat..i didnt noe why.Den my hand just went to the thermometer...and there was no more fever!I was healed in 1 minute.

See how wonderful God is?Praise God man!

He bore my sickness.He took away my sins.And now i can stand without sins in front of him and am blameless.No one can condemn me.I have full security.The fever was just lying syptoms the devil put in my body.And now i am totally healed.

2006-01-19T03:42:00.000-08:00

My fever is 38 now!!!..AHHH

2006-01-19T03:25:00.000-08:00

I stayed at home today too and Im not going tomorrow.It seems like my fever is really burning.I took my temperature before i went to sleep and it was 37.5 degree celsius.After i woke up,i took my temperature again,and it was 37.7 degree celsius.

-when i put my hand to my nose,my breath is So HOT.
-everythin i eat is tasteless.
-im Feeling cold even when im wearing a sweater,and when i switch off air-conditioning and when the windows are closed.
-and when i took my clothes off to bathe,i was shivering mad.And i turned the heater all the way to the left(which is the hotest)and i was still cold.

It seems like Kim,Selina and myself are staying home tomorrow.Selina is happy she isn't going to school.I kind of am.Now i have the time to do revision,read up chinese so when Huang lao shi teaches in class,i wont be clueless.Right now im doing math revision.I need more practice.

Im a self-disciplined person=)hehe
I kind of like doing math revision.Cause when the books all new and white,it seems so neat and i feel like doing it.Plus ill read up on geog tomorrow,read a chinese book and the textbook.And study summore of History(i already got 1 1/2 page down)hehe.

Im starting to like studying.God makes the thing i hate most to become interesting and i have more passion for it. Gods words always come true.I love u DD God.

Mum says when im sick,im so manjah(is this how u spell it?)
i keep cuddling up to her.Haha.I cant help it.When i walk,my brain feels like its bobbing up ad down in my head..and there like a lot of water in my head.That funny feeling.

I finally found the grp who say on my own!Its Hedley.The lead singer is the canadian idol.His voice is so powerful=)

Im so not in a mood to fight with my sister todae.I just don't have the energy.And im being such a mommy's-lil-gal.Haha.I help her pour water for my sister.I just cant help being like tt.I dont have the energy to be mischievous.Haha

Im missing Ain and iddy now.I did this black card with out names and our genres and Nicknames.Haha.

2006-01-18T05:28:00.000-08:00

I didnt go 4 school todae.I dont really want to go tomorrow.yet at the same time,i do.I dont want to miss out on animore lessons.It seems everyone is getting sick.i think there was a viral spread.
im BORED.went to the doc again.To get MC and beta medicine.Yesterdae's do was a lil crazee man.he ask me to take like 5 ml only.by right shld be 7.5 ml.Todae Dr Kang beta sia.he ask me to take 10 ml.

im BORED.

finished the anaconda project.but i think i may add more stuff.

P.E tomorrow.i cant take.and den band...not sure if i can go.Cause i really dont want the mouthpiece to get my germs.and im not supposed to*sighs*but i wanna play fairest of the fair.First time tenor sax get melody.And the fingering must change alot..so its like a challenge and fun.=)

Listening to Misteeq-Scandalous.
addictive.her voice is nice=)

in love with this song...on my own.But i have no idea by what band.When i searched on the internet,there were so many bands tt sung songs witht the title on my own.But when i searched the lyrics,all diff.I still cant find it.But SO NICE.
i wanna put in ma blog..but ai...the newspaper say cannot.l8r fine sia.

go http://www.outspoken-kate.com/

u can listen there.u just wait for it to load.

2006-01-17T04:57:00.000-08:00

The afternoon math programme was canceled but i still had to stay back for band.But having the dry cough todae,i really wasn't in the mood.I didn't want to cough when i blow.Firstly,it wld be embarrassing and i wld make alot of mistakes.Secondly,I didnt want the mouth piece to catch my germs and thirdy,I didn't want to cough,it was so painful.I walked to the bus stop with Kim and Farizah.That's when i heard this loud voice,which i can recognize aniwhere,calling my name.I turned around and saw azam at the stair window with Angus.I was already out of school and they can call me,so loud summore.haha.

Azam just called to remind me to bring Halo.My sis was like...Hannah,azam or sumthing called u.And im like,his name is Ayam.HAHA.

Reached home,Mom brought me to the doc and we went to Delifrance as i had a craving for baked potatoe.YUM.Aniwae,before i left the restuarant,i was like..did i leave anything behind?

Mom and i went up to Popular to buy moi a green and blue pen and i remembered i needed to buy sumthing else,but cldnt replace it.Anyway we left without me buying tt thing.We went to minitoons next.Mom wanted a sling for her phone.That's when i saw the ultra cool saxaphone keychain!U cld take it out and use it as a pendant on a necklace.Hehe.i bought it.DUH~hehe

I kept coughing and Mum was like OH NO!WHERE'S YOU MEDICINE?!

"-_-see...my brain how helpful.It told me i left sumthing..but not what."

aniwae..now tt im home,i finally remembered what i ahd to buy at popular,my file.SHOOT LAR.

2006-01-16T04:10:00.000-08:00

Just watched Lovers in Paris.
Syu-hyuk is SO handsome!The character is SO HOT!Plays the drums,fun-filled guy.And his uncle Ki-Ju is COOL too.I love his cool attitude.He has a hard image but he's actually a very soft and humourous person.

Syu-hyuk is the fun one but he's not stable.he doesnt work and just likes to have fun.
Whereas his uncle is stable really noes how to take care and really stable.

Im gonna find a guy out there.Who is the perfect mixture of these 2!I wil will!Daddy God picked tt special one for me.And he's out there waiting for me too*winks*Thanks Jesus!*dances*

Nothing much happened todae."cept tt i had to retake my chinese spelling todae.I was the only gal who "failed" except for Michelle who didnt come todae.5/8 is considered failed to Huang lao shi(teacher).

Confirmed im moving to chicago!WEEE!
kelly said she's moving to australia next year or this year.Seems like everyone is leaving!

In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared
In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets
Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you

[Chorus]
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Cause true love never dies

In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things we'll wish we'll never said
In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other, standing on the same street corner though it rains
Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only i could stop the World i'd make this last

[Chorus]Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
And its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Cause true love never dies
And when you need my arms to run intoI'll come for you
Nothing will ever change the way i feel

[Chorus]Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
And its the hardest thing to sayI'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
Because a true love never dies

2006-01-15T04:29:00.000-08:00

I reached Tm early.Lynn wanted to take neoprint with us and she was coming at 6 and so we really didnt noe what to do.so in the end,we took a train back to pasir ris,and stayed in there.My seniors said it was the concept of getting a seat.we went to orchard.See how desperate we were.

We ended up staring at the deco at Heeren and den we took a walk around one of the floors..den stare at deco summore.Hai.Dne we wnet to Mac.So its like we went to orchard just to eat Mac..."-.-

the concert was kinda boring.Their playing was great.But the songs they chose were like really boring.1/2 were nice,but still kinda boring.
I saw Terry there!She's my pri 5 and 6 classmate.

Mum is looking at houses in chicago already and applying for authorisation to stay permanently in Chicago.Hai....

Ill miss Ain so much!Hai...cant i stuff u in my bag?
and wahidah
and kim
and dilah
*sighs*

but i cant wait!
school tomorrow....*sighs*
i have really lil time to post.i still have art hmrk.sorry peeps!

2006-01-13T19:01:00.000-08:00

am listening to I'm Real by J Lo feat.Ja Rule.
Old song.
But i got re-addicted.Hehe.
I sang along den..
My sis:U sing nice
Moi:Sure?
Sis nods
Moi:How much over a 100 per cent
Sis:a thousand

WEE

i rock i rock.!Found this song.damn cute...the lyrics a lil bit abt sex.but the song so cute.Its Rock my world by Jeanette Bierdermann.

Im meeting my section at 3.30 pm at TM.neoprints and makan den concert!WEE

Yesterdae nite,Mum surprised me.She gave me this silver box.Inside was the most gorgeous choker and earrings!I really want to pierce my ear now!I not scared thanks to the earrings.Hahahahaha.
Mum:actually i bought the earrings cause i tot i cld borrow it frm u.
Moi:But ur ear hole closed up
Mum:No
Moi:Yes
Mum tries to put in ear hole(which is not existing)
Mum:Oh yea.....

hahahahahahahahahahaha.
im piercing.to wear the gorgeous earrings.where?looking.when?wait.
hahahahahahahaha.

l8r wearing my green ajcket mum bought 4 christmas.First time.can't WAIT!and plus wearing the choker she bought!cant wait cant wait.*jumps*

rite now..im stuck wif ma hmrk.see ya'll l8r.

2006-01-12T03:59:00.000-08:00

I looked at my blog yesterdae after posting and my fell became feel.But when i logged on to blogspot to edit that typo error,the post in here says fell not feel.weird.wadev.cldnt care less.

in bus 3 this morning,Mr YAP came up the bus at the last stop of punggol.I nearly fainted.
Intro:Mr Yap,my history teacher.
He has the same sir name as me and stays in punggol as well.
URGH!
and den Reuben.He JUST found out im also a yap.He's reuben yap.And everytime he sees me,he's like hi yap."-_-
MUMMY!
and den IPW teacher,another Mr YAP.
ARGH!
Robotics teacher,ANOTHER yap.
EEEKKK!
and in the new teacher column in hai sings newsletter,theres a ms.yap.
GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

irritated.very irritated.
To ancestors:See la ya'll!Have such a common name!Kills ur decendants originality!

hai.

I met vera on the bus.Sec 3 vera.Also known as Azam's mentor.She's so friendly,she sat with me and we chat.And she like offered to do duty with me cause she thinks i too shy.Haha.She so nice man.The prefect seniors(most of them) are really nice.

Fatin and I are freaked by our duty.The staircase so DARK!we supposed to go hall at like 7.15,but 7.09 already leave.hahaha.So dark lar the staircase!Senior says we chicken.

I forgot to put chinese work in Teacher's pigeon hole!AHHH!There wasn't enuff time to finish the work teach' gave us during the class so i passed it up unfinished.Then he gave it back and told me to put in his pigeon hole before 3.During lunch break i went to put it in his pigeon hole but i didnt noe which one was it,so i didn't.Promised i wld do tt after eng lesson.BUT forgot!SHOOT!how to explain to teacher in chinese?I had better rehearse!!!!

Ive got SRAs to do,finish up art mindmap,Redraw a BIGGER version of my sketch for Mr.Najib(fussy man!)tt's D&T and den of course History hmrk and to study Geog!
oh yea!Mental note:Bring jacket tomorrow!
its been COLD.and i can still drink bubble tea just now.seriously.HAI.

ciao ma babes and hunks.
Dont miss me!

2006-01-11T04:20:00.000-08:00

The moment i laid my eyes on this blogskin,i fell in love with it instantly!
*sighs*
Its so elegant and pure.

I feel down todae.It was a really weird feel down.I ever laugha t myself.Ju zhong laughed at me.So mean!But it was really weird..ppl usually fall face down..but i feel like totally on my knees...it was as if i was asking forgiveness frm sumbody.weird.My skin tore away.it hurts so much.i was like screaming in the shower.

im bored.i gtg now u peeps.study for chem and read the compre and do ma history hmrk.*sighs*

2006-01-08T00:43:00.000-08:00

I FINALLY found the zoey101's theme song,UNFROTUNATELY,i can't code it cause the website used flash player.Sad,i tot it wld really suit my layout.

So i finally met Shu Ming!And what happened to Dickson?Oh lets see,he woke like 1,2 pm...and so cldnt make it.

"-_-seriously.

anyway,i booked him for 21st Jan so we cld hang tt day.i told him to wake up MUCH earlier.Yea.

Had a GREAT D.A.R.E service!And guess who was in Shu Ming's grp of friends?DENISE!!!hehe.readers/fans(HAHA),meet denise.denise,meet readers/fans.My best mate in primary 4!Hehe.It was cool to see her there.Guess we'll be hanging out more.Before we met,shu Ming sms me and was like..I'm with Georgia.I'm like...who's that?And she says it's funny cause she noes me and she haha and said she tot i was pretty popular.and i'm like...eh?(ew.so not boasting..but seriously..i was like..HUH[i noe.me=blur]jumping at dare...yea.Lao da says this year will be a year where all our dreams will be fufilled.And he said his singaporean mind told him to dream more.HAHAHAHA.true.I MUST dream more.

After dare,i felt really REALLY tired.and when that happens..i noe sumthing sreally wrong in my body.I had a sore throat in the morning but didnt wanna tell dad.When i reached home,i told him and i took m y temperature.I had fever.I was really..."dead".I fell onto the shower floor.U have no idea how many times ive done tt.Pity the floor.

Went to Church todae.Saw auntie Mina at mcdonald's.(Hotcakes and sausage.YUM!)
During holy communion,God told me tt holy communion wasn't the remedy to cure me.It was to remind me that Jesus was the remedy and i was already healed and the sore throat and fever was just lying symptms created by the devil.And so i believed...and right after drinking the cup,my throat didn't hurt animore.instantly.cool huh?But still i was having doubts.and den the pain came back and den Jesus told me i took care of you.And now..no pain!WEE!Jesus rocks!he helps even in the littlest things.=)DD God,u rock ma world.

im suppose to be talking to ignatius but guess what?he's playing a computer game.HMMP.he loves the game more than me.HMMP.

stoopid game.>.<

2006-01-06T05:30:00.000-08:00

Its a new year.A wonderful fresh start.
Its been great this first week!This year is a really GREAT year for me.its a HUGE turning point in my life.I can feel it.Seriously,i cant wait to get home and do my homework,organize my bag and go back to school to study again.Before i wld say school totally sucks and its a huge waste of time...but u noe what?I'm enjoying it.Working has become fun.I can't wait for my prefect duties!

God's word is ALWAYS true.He wants us to enjoy life,and Jesus took sin on the cross.The punshiment of sin and the pains of sin.The stress of working is totally gone.I feel excited to work and study.God's love just really put this feeling in me.I feel so reborn,that everyday i go through,i get closer to something big that's gonna happen in my life and that everywhere around me,things become sweeter and life is full of rainbows.

And now ive become even more sporting.Like this group i was in...we were supposed to do this cheer.It was really lame and embarrassing one..and all the guys were so not in the mood to do it.But i said they weren't the only ones doing it.We wld do it together and den no one person cld be picked out and be shameful.I cldn't believe that came out of my mouth.and true enuff,we had a GREAT time doing it.we did it so many times our throats were sore and our legs hurt frm all the jumping and steps.

Ive become more open...i'm meeting 2 people tomorrow,who ive never met.And we're gonna go out together.This sec 3 guy and this other gal.

Maybe as ur reading this,u think its nothing.but i feel SO much has changed.The same world i saw last and this year has changed completely.What i see with my heart changes what my eyes see too.

im getting to talk to igster face to face.FINALLY.and now talking to joel(can't avoid tt.same church,same neighbourhood,same class,school and he sits behind me).

But really whats changing is me,inside...and its causing my outside to change too.

i feel so much is gonna happen this year.Good things.Wonderful things.

Like rite now,im doing a new timetable.So ill tell ya'll more next time.Ciao!

2006-01-01T17:49:00.000-08:00

I watched this television programme on channel 5 yesterday.I think it's title was something like "save the music".My dad was approving the the show.He said"It's great that America encourages music".Josh groban,alicia keys,joss stone and few other celebs were in the show.Oh!and Mariah as well.I'll have ya'll noe that before Mariah "disappeared and made a come-back",every one of her music cds is in our disc shelve.My Dad loves her voice,as well as Whitney Houston,Alicia Keys and Diana Krall.And my point is?Daddy's HIP.hahahahaha.

Anyway,my family was talking abt Mariah and den we remembered we bumped into her once.It was SO funny.We were just walking along the road and minding our own business when all of a sudden this beautiful car just stopped right beside us.The door opened and my Dad almost walked right into it.It was so sudden.We failed to realize the HUGE crowd that was screaming.Can you believe this?My Dad blocked Mariah from getting out of the car.Hey!So not our fault!They stopped right where we were standing!And this BIG guard thought my Dad was a crazy fan and was like pushing him away.My whole family was like clueless.And out popped Mariah carey.She stood RIGHT in front of Daddykins.HAHAHAHAHAHA. A million people would have loved to be in my dad's position but my dad isn't the screaming fan.He's the kind that likes people voices if they're really good.He'll admire 'em for that,and buy their cds but that's as far as he goes.He wont scream or like go to their concerts.That kinda thing.Love my Dad for that.He keeps his cool.=3

Had dinner at Angel's.Steamboat AGAIN.It seems that whenever i go to her place..it's 4 steamboat.Seriously,how abt a lil more variety?Maybe pasta and pizza?Anyhow,i just watched the tele there.Zoey 101 and 1/4 of Girls in Love. They're my 2 fav shows on Nick.I just started watching this new Korean series called Lovers in paris.So romantic,cute and awfully sweet.Monday,Tuesday,7 pm.

Starting to get really bored with the Lime magazine.Quote from sex column:
John Molina,35
Most common excuse for holding out?(on sex)
i seldom give excuses 'cos i'm seldom not in the mood.I've also
played out the ultimate male fanatasy
by having sex with more than one woman at the same time.
But it only happened once.

.....

OMYGOSH.SUCKER MUCH.Honestly guys,is that really ur ULTIMATE fantasy?Two timing is already bad but playing 2 gerls on the same bed is REALLY pushing the line.It spoils self respect for both gals and urself.His pic is on the mag.EW.He is so UGLEE.ah beng material.His hair is potential mushroom.

Mariah says "Casual sex destroys self-respect.Some people use it to feel better about themselves but in fact it ruins lives.I've never been comfortable with promiscuity."

She is SO right.

2005-12-30T03:46:00.000-08:00

Hey hey ya'll!
Don't cha agree the layout's nice?
Im jealous of the cartoon.It even has friends and me..quite contrary.Haha.

Had a 6/6 2004 class reunion just now.Guess what?everyone last minute cancelled and only Charis,Davinia,Derek,Tian Jie,Darrell,Thian Shun,Weng loong and myself turned up.8 ppl.And 6/6 had 40 peeps.We were the most united class in St.hilda's.We didn't hate anyone,neither did we have catfights.It was so diff frm right now,Hai Sing.I missed them all so much!

I met Derek and Tian Jie first.But left them to buy chips.When i came back,Charis and Dove were there.Took a bus to Pasir Ris park and met Thian Shun and Weng loong.Those 2!They use the curry puff to play a game.Took one bite and then threw it into the bin.But pretty amazing aim!He swung it like a frisbee cause the bin wasn't those open top kind.But it went it straight!Haha.Those 2 are always together.And guess what?they left together!They ate my chips,threw their curry puffs and den left to go Thian shun's house to play the xbox"-_-
we saw them for like...5 minutes.Den Tian Jie and Derek sat around talking same as us gals.Den Darrell came,with CHICKEN WINGS.Music to Charis's ears.She was like running towards him,in a crazy-happy manner.Im wondering if it was because of the wings......or...the guy*smirks*

The boys played their soccer...with Charis.She loves being with guys.HAHA.She's gonna kill me.All of a sudden,Derek grab me by the hand and was pulling me to play soccer.I was like NO!I DONT KNOW HOW TO PLAY!He said all i had to do was stand like a statue.He pulled my hand so hard.And when i started to run away he take my arm again!!!!DEREK!!!!MY HAND IS ATTACHED YA NOE!!!!!!so pain man.Den Charis had to make it worse by taking a photo.Oh c'm on Charis,ya noe 6/6 peeps just cant be together.We're too...family like.haha.

Charis went off home to go shopping with her Mom.Darrell and Tian Jie went to TM and Derek went to a friend's chalet and to meet Godwin there!Irritating!Godwin can go for chalet but not for class reunion!Crap man him!I went to Dove's house and to catch up with stuff.I still can't get used to tian Jie's voice.It's so low.I preferred it when he used to squeak.Hahahahaha.I cldn't stand it den i was like...can u just don't talk?HAHHAHAHAHAHA.No offence dude.I sms him to not flirt so much..he was like..i already have a gf.So happie.Hahahahahaha.I cant believe sum1 finds Chun kit hot!My ex HOT?!EWWWWWW.Man,seriously..my friend finds my ex hot.EW MUCH.She's always going for the wrong guys.

Heard martian's got a gf.we all think he bribed the gal.Poor sweetie.Or either she's just so desperate she just wants to have a bf.hai.

had fortune cookie.YUM.Stoopid fortune.Got 4D number too.Definately s'pore cookie.HAHAHA.My mum still laghing at me when i said tt.It says Don't run away from your troubles,Face your challenges."-_-.Wadev.God saved me frm my troubles,the battle belongs to Jesus,i don't need to lift a finger.TY Daddy.=)

The prefect camp was......painful.The floor was so hard,i slept 2 hours and now i have terrible muscle ache from the morning run.twice around the school.up and down the stairs.I had to stop.I had a cold and for sum reason the....phlegm kept going down my throat.YUCK.I cldnt breathe..it was so painful..and i tried to breathe so hard that my ears hurt BAD.I really cldn't take it.It was so painful..and i cldnt breathe....what a terrible time.stoopid cold.

2nd day was fun.the games..i like the pic game.Got to noe er hao alot more.he veri nice.When the boring part of the prefect camp came up,we faster run away for band.den when band..supposed to do duty...we went for prefect camp.HAHAHAHAHA.Er hao,Calista,Jermaine and myself.I cant believe my grp America won!*laughs in Julz face*MUHAHAHAHA.I tot her grp,Germany wld win.Bleah!!!USA!!!!WE ROCK!!!!!Chocolate=prize.YUM YUM.

I complained abt the floor during lights off....Hakeem laugh and said i sleep in my bed...so shiok man.He,really noes how to get on my nerves!The roller coaster and now the prefect camp.I think he has fun doing it.*fumes*haha..but i have to hand it to him.He's not bad.

2005-12-23T00:30:00.000-08:00

Listening to "I saw Mommy kissing Santa Claus".Cute song.Hehe.

About the person i talked abt yesterday....maybe i was a lil harsh.But i just reali feel as tho she doesnt bother...and its reali not fair to me.That i put so much thought and worry over the whole thing....the effort...and den in the end...she doesnt bother.....i mean...come on..which one of u wants to have friends that don't bother and don't care and hang with other friends to even forget to realize you're there.And ur onli friends with them so u can hang wif 'em at recess.I want friends...tt i can hang in and out of school...ppl i can easily talk to...and they can come to me....almost like siblings..(excluding my siblingship wif Titia)......i just..i don't noe.So shld i give everything one last try?everyone deserves second chances....but whats the point if things aren't gonna change..and she'll still be too over her other friends to remember me.

2005-12-22T16:29:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow night is christmas eve!I can't wait!
Lets me remember the menu for tomorrow...err.

Turkey
Breaded Fish
Roast Duck
Pasta
Ice cream cake
Pizza
Lasanga
Potatoes
Bread
Fruits
Nuggets
and ALOT more!
weeehehehe.Can't wait!
yesterdae,Godma came to put her presents under our tree.Ours and hers fill the whole bottom tree already!I even had to put under the shoe rack.

Lets see....the presents we bought
Dixon:"5 children and It"vcd
Charlotte: a headband set with a sweet lil clip and a bracelet
Letitia:Barbie Shoes
Angel:A beautiful elegant blue butterfly necklace
Alethea:A lil purse with a bracelet
Gabriel:A chicken lil shirt(HEHE)
Geraldine:A beautifully designed watch
Justus:Shirt and shorts
Jairus:Shirt
Myself:Elegant Green lace cover and choker!!!!

seee..the siblings i put the same colour.....angel and alethea start with a
gabriel and geraldine start with g
and jairus and justus start with j......
"-_-

ai....thank goodness....me and my sis tho siblings...start with diff letter....Letitia and hannah....no similarity.MUAHAHAHAHAHHAA.Hallelujah man.I dont want to be anything like her.HAHA.
dixon and charlotte are the only kids without sibs.charlotte has a step bro....same mum...diff dad...but her mother doesnt even love her.....my uncle and her mom divorce already....her mom even told her tt she hated her.Imagine..ur mom telling u how much she hates u.Charlotte's only 5....her mom divorce twice...and new bf..twisted evil woman.and to think she took the name of Mrs.Yap.How dare she dirty our name.freak'n woman.asshole.go fuck away lar.she have dunnoe how many affairs.

2005-12-22T00:40:00.000-08:00

I just listened to Every moment by Joy williams...it's a beautiful song...

abt holding on to every moment...because time passes by very fast....and days slip between our fingers...And tt we shld give every minute to God,the one who gave us time..

its so touching with all tt's happening now....everyday has become a burden...im scared of tomorrow....school has become torture....and i dont even friends to share it with...and yet God who gave me today took care of tomorrow on the cross...we must always treausre every moment....we always wish time wld fly fast cause now educationa dn everything else is pulling us down...and in tt....we waste precious time....

Every Moment
Words and Music by Jesse Butterworth, Regie Hamm and Joy Williams
We laughed out loud ‘til we cried
And the tears were sweet
Midnight melted to morning
A moment faded to memory
All these days
They just slip away through our fingers
So…

CHORUS
Don’t let go
Hold onto every moment
Always know
Hold onto every moment that You can

We move on with no regrets to our destiny
Held by the hands of the Father
We share His love and He leads us through
All these days
They just slip away through our fingers
So…

CHORUS

Running through yesterday into tomorrow
Don’t let it just drift away
Forget about tying the hands of time
Give every minute to the One who gave us today

CHORUS

2005-12-22T00:09:00.000-08:00

hey my peeps.Im lovin' the welcome sign.I think Kim'll too.Having a rough hour.My sis is getting really out of hand.She's trying to act like some teenager and she's trying to "slang".You have no idea how terrible it is.I was using the computer and she was like how do you spell the radio thing.I was like WHAT?and she pinted to radioblogclub.

That lil scump!She's pratically taking my life!Her attitude is starting to stink and Mom is so ignorant.URGH.I hate it.I feel like slapping her!This whole month she has been acting like a total bitch.I hate bitches and my OWN sister!She totally has no respect at all for me!Idiotic brat.Im 6 years older than you!I cannot stand her ego.

From now on im going to discipline her.I wont use violence.I will just use my mouth.I will no longer bother to push her cheeks between my hands.She's a total bitch now.When i tell her to stop her lousy habits she tells me to keep quiet!Her rudeness and total bitchyness really has burnt the end of the rope.

Ive given up on HER(another person) as being my best friend ever.Ive always been siding her...but now i look at it frm the outside view.I don't want her to be my best friend animore.I realize she doesnt bother abt me....and she doesnt make me happy being her friend...and im not gonna wait like sum pathetic dog until she feels she can give me time of her day to finally make me her friend.She too busy with her other friends to really make REAL friends to stick to the end.

I have so many friends but i want TRUE friends...

even another person agrees with me tt she's been like tt to me.ive always been there for her.....she neva bothered to see it..she kept blaming me said i expected too much..she didnt even see.....im sick of ebing taken for granted.....i don think i can find a best friend at all in hai sing....God,i wanna get out of s'pore.Nobody wants me here.anyway she got ALOT of friends to hear all tt she has to say abt me...they're her very best of friends.ppl who she actually BOTHER abt.

She doesnt make me feel happy being her friend....and when things go wrong..she say i dont care i dont make an effort....

history project...dont care if get scolded by teacher....im doing solo.

Omygosh i have to get out of s'pore......i dont fit in here at all.

2005-12-21T06:11:00.000-08:00

After chinese Tutition todae,i went to Parkway parade.Looked for presents for Charlotte's maid and for Angel.Bought the maid this ultra cool mug and for angel..this gorgeous choker...with a blue butterfly.And let me tell you..i do not buy chokers from chameleon or tt 77th street...i go to those boutiques to buy.Better qulaity better style.Plus its chunkier and more elegant....the normal shops have such plain ones and it doesnt last and their all so tiny and plain.

Anyway i fell in love with this choker...with a ring on it...it was like one of my dream rings!!!!its plain in colour den there are red and lime jewels in a flower pattern all around.It's so elegant.Went to isetan.To bu presents for Romelle and Ray.When i spotted this beautiful skirt!it was so earthly....like tie dye colours.But the material was like tearing apart.HAHA.Anyway...i looked for all the clothes from tt label.I almost fainted.Their stuff are SOOOOOOOOO nice.thats when i saw the label....the theme was home grown...the main label was MAGIQ...those who went for the genting competition...remember i was waring a green long sleeve tee?with cute on it?it had sequins and all?same label.I saw this other shirt....it was so unique!!!Long sleeve again....with vintage handwriting on it....cursive and spidery...so elegant.....it was a peach colour.That when i caught sight of the jacket*faints*

it is WAY elegant and unique...there were 2 colour....pink and green.....the green was the last one..MY SIZE.at the bottom there was those lace frm vintage dresses.SO ELEGANT.I bought it!the pink had yellow lace...WEIRD.The green is SOOOOOOOOO nice!one day i take pic for ya'll.

it costs....ehem...$42......frm MAGIQ and my cute tee...in genting...tt was...$50......whoa...im expensive....but even my mom fell in love with the jacket!!!@!

2005-12-14T04:05:00.000-08:00

Oh man,the food like really...ERR.I'm right at the back.

And we thought we were the collest thing in the world.I definately NEED a hair cut.

I NEED A HAIR CUT.

2005-12-14T03:35:00.000-08:00

Heres a pic of me eating cup noodles and reading cleo mag!

That day when i went to visit my grandmother,she had this old wooden box,and she gave it to me.I'm gonna put all my bracelets and necklaces inside.But its a real plain jane.Total DARK brown.So i think im gonna paint it.But i have no idea what to paint on it.

Since it was such a dark brown,i thought of doing vines and grapes,with flowers.Prefably,BLOOD red roses.You peeps have any suggestion?I want it to be more of an elegant theme.Researc hing on the internet for antique designs.

Remember i talked abt the perv guy yesterday?Guess what.HE STRIKES AGAIN.
this afternoon he asked me why i didn't reply his sms.Now,most of you should noe that i HARDLY check my phone.But when i found my phone,there weren't any msgs in it.HAHA.Maybe i gave him the WRONG number.

The thing is,during our conversation on msn just now,he asked me this:"Cld u answer one of my 2 questions yesterday?"

*ALERT*

HELLO.Didn't he say it was his cousin who asked me tt,not him.WHAT a loser.Fib after fib until he cant keep track.Man,the guy is WAY pathetic.
Obviously i said no.

My conclusions of mr.samuel sumthing frm bowen secondary.
Desperate
Pathetic
Liar
Pervert
Lame

i have NEVER done public denouncing,but this guy has gone off the hook.Everyone has limits and unfortunately for him,he chose the wrong gal to push her limits.Dude,you've reached the end of the rope,i'm not sorry u have to be flushed away..GET A LIFE.

and seriously,cut off ur "ois"they're so RUDE and you have GOT to brush up on your english.

the guy asked for my photo.Sorry Mr,i'm afraid my face will be too good for your eyes to take,and will make you PERMANENTLY blind.

Oh,and one last thing.I think EVERY girl doesn't deserve such a low person as you.NO ONE in their right mind wld be your gal even if you were the ONLY male on earth.

2005-12-13T05:03:00.000-08:00

how ya'll been doing?
im so addicted to Everlife's Evidence song.I want the cd,but there is no such cd in s'pore!*wails*
Man,s'pore is slow.I really hope it comes.I cant listen to a 1 minute part of the song!!!!

aniwae....i went to visit my grand mother on saturday.We just found out she has diabetes...hai....

okay...the HUGE thing.

this guy....he added me on msn.And so ive been wondering who he was.Then,finally one day he came online and we chat.He didnt even noe who i was,he said he got my e-mail frm his fren.And i was like,what fren?And he said i didnt noe the guy...."-_-er?

so fine....he suddenly asked for my phone number..i was like...why?and he was all..i just wanna sms u....and i was forget it.and i deleted his contact.

just todae..he came to tok to me again..he was like who are u?and i reminded him of our last conversation.and he was like...oh.So i was thinking,it wldnt hurt to be his friend rite?So i added him again.

all of a sudden he says..."can i ask u a private question?"den i was thinking how private cld it get...and i was like..its okay..u just shoot.and he said 2 questions actually.den i was its fine..just shoot...

guess his questions...

"What is the colour of ur underwear?"
"Do u have hair at ur.....*beeps*"
the beep is the pussy....but he said...cheebye..i didnt noe what tt was.
can u BELIEVE THAT?!
i was like..NO!Im never telling u!
den he siad...u said tt u wld answer...
i was like...dude,u are such a perv!!!!
i wa so mad..i was gonna block him and i told him

den outta the blue he says tt was his cousin...
"-_-
wadev.I told him i wld give him one more chance...if not i wld block him...den he was oi oi oi dunoe how many times...

an iwae.....for a few minutes we just chat...den...again...SHOCKING.
he was like...can u be my gf?

OMYYYY FUCKING GOSH!!!!
i was so BURNING mad!What a sucker!!!!we chat for only 2 times..each less than 5 minutes....!!!And he had the CHEEK!!!!!
den i was thinking.u shld be polite to him...den i said....i dont noe who u are..ive never seen u....and he was like..just visualize me....]
WHASH MY FUCKING FUCKER.
oh the nerve!

i just contnue saying i stead guys blindly soo many times...and i wanna be with sum1 whom i love...and i told him he shld stead gals whom he really like too....den he went offline.

and he came back online..and said i had hurt his feelings..and ask the question agn!!!i deleted him already....

BUH BYE U DESPO SUCKER!!!!

2005-12-09T03:05:00.000-08:00

Hey peeps!
Im back frm genting!
Missed me?Haha.

It was so cool!
We got a GOLD for 21st century international band competition!
We reached our goal to be the top 5.we are the fifth!It is a GREAT achievement.I cant wait for other competitions.

I got to noe more band people.Like Cai Xia,Hakeem,Hafeez,Yi Ting,Yan Lin and ALOT more about my roomate Letitia.We're cool friends now.And me and Ain elevate to another level of our friendship.Hehe.*jumps up and down*

I took the roller coaster...At first i was like....cm on,how terrible could it be?But when i sat in the car....i felt like crying.....what had i gotten myself into?DEN HAKEEM!!!!He sat behind me and he was like..."die,die,die"!!!!When the car went down i felt like i was falling face down!!!!!
That one i was scared...den the Space shot.....u sit in this thingy....and it goes up up up and away..and suddenly drops down.I was like.....so cool!It wld be much better than the roller coaster...Sumthing wrong with me!!!!When i was up there...Oh my gosh....it was like freefalling....my butt was off the seat!!!After tt i scared already...HAHA.

I bought this awesome bag frm this really girly shop called Girls.Letitia and Dilah have the same bag.I bought my sis a tee.Its so beautiful.Even my mum says so.Hehe.Its really SOOOO nice!

I had a wonderful time there.
Walking in the night....with my friends....the dark and the lights of the shops.....it was quite romantic.Sadly....no guy to share it with.The scenery frm the lobby of the 18th floor was sooooo wonderful!Its so beautiful...the cloud just above the mountains....It is So beautiful....

I want another competition next year!Mr Lua researched...maybe in Japan next year!!!So COOL.WHY NOT?!I love Band....getting to travel and play music!!!

Ee hern gave me this.....talk.It was a big talk....he said i hope to see u improve.Ill come back to help you.And he said my tone was good....He's my saxaphone senior.In a way i had like alot of respect for him,he can play VERY well.And sort of felt proud lar.....BIG talk.I must get his contact no.Must keep in touch with him.

Right now,im missing....Azam.hahahahahahahahahaha.Yea...for sum weird reason.We aren't so good friends now.He was my first best friend..and i dont want to lose tt friendship of ours....only problem is...how i noe if he treats me like a good friend still?To ask him wld be weird....its like admitting defeat to him...NO WAY.I pity him...to be sick during the Genting trip...got a lil worried for him...he was like so tired..even tho he is one of the most irritating ppl in the world...he can be soft..and when tt part of him cums out..its like a special surprise present.I like tt lar.Not sure what to do abt our friendship now.i just hope u still treat me like ur best friend.U dont read my blog...so crap......No WAY im telling him.i got ma pride to keep.

Yan Lin gave me a Michelle Branch CD!!!JACKPOT!!!!She so nice man!!!!I lurb her!My darlin'.
I LOVE michelle branch!!!!Right now listening to the disc.So nice of her man.......

life is so cool now.
im happy.
tho im single.
im waiting..and dreaming of Mr.Right.
But i have everything because of Daddy God.

sumtimes i dream im a little girl again...and i jump into daddy God's lap....and he hold me and hug me.and Play with me and i give him lods of hugs and kisses...to be near him is wonderful.I wanna go church tomorrow....he's done so much for me this whole week.So i wanna go to church and praise him.
Im Righteous by faith in that Jesus Christ died for me in the cross.And in him,i have found everythin i wanted and needed...stuf i neva knew i needed.Spiritually and material things.

2005-12-02T21:46:00.000-08:00

Im so over phantom of the opera...and im back on the VERONICAS!!!
Right now,im so inspired by them and Nikki flores.2 totally diff music..and den theres Sara Paxton.

I seem to hit on the "new and not so popular" ppl.I like it.Its like..i like my own singers..and not many ppl noe them.I just feel proud..u noe...tt originality.Haha.Im weird.I just like being unique ya noe.

2005-12-02T05:43:00.000-08:00

hey hey...to anione who actually reads my pathetic blog.

okay.im cool*breathes in and out*

its just...during all this time...i just feel so..lonely ya noe.I dont have a real fren or anything...no one to hang with.......

like during the farewell party.My section abandon me..to go...i have no idea where.Den only my jc and sec 4 seniors like so kind to me.

crap.

and....i reanswered his e-mail.I told him...that i'd hope he'd find the right girl.Hey....its time to let go.Friends is better than nothing right?

Someday im gonna find Someone who wants my soul, heart and mind
Whos not afraid to show that he loves me
Somebody who will understand im happy just the way i am

yep.

Heard Mum and Dad talking....abt moving to chicago...maybe next year?hey why not.I mean like...CHICAGO!!!!but...ai.......america's pretty wild.
and..i have so much here....it think...i'll miss church.hey..New creation is THE best.
but den...now...i dont have a guy....no real fren....i wldnt lose if i leave?

ai..i dont noe what i want.

im just missing sum....juice in my life.But i dont noe what.

Ive been thinking like....why shld i always dream abt the perfect guy...how i want him to be.Afterall..i do have the perfect guy.God.My Daddy God.

i just want sumthing...but i dont noe what...i just feell......dead nowsadays.

i dont want to go to Genting....so...meaningless.I ot i cld go there enjoy with my friends...hah.what friends.....crap

i dont have anione to tok to!!!!!

loneliness is tragical.

and den...comes my....im-gonna-do-sumthing-mad feeling.
ive been getting this alot this year...is it because ive turned 13?or im faced a new world...or?
supernatural things are happening.

...

2005-11-26T04:01:00.000-08:00

Im playing for the band Genting Competition.Honestly,im not THAT happy.I mean,my friends didn't get in...To me...it had lost some meaning.And i think i got in cause if i don't play,my senior would be the only tenor saxaphone.Plus,we're staying in a pathetic hotel with a toilet the size of a vending machine....i am SO not excited.

Im missing church camp for genting competition.I am so.....URGH!

church camp,a time to be with God.To experience more of Him,to learn more about Him and his promises for us.His amazing love.AND,lots of praise and worship!!!In my church,praise and worship means lods of jumping!!!Christian Rock and Pop!!!Staying so late in the night to be with God.Plus stay in a 5 star hotel!!!!!i already missed June camp for band!!!!Everything band!!!Next year,i DONT care.God comes first.Band takes up all our holiday.It isnt fair.AT ALL.

Went with Caroline to DARE todae.I met denise there.And serene!!!Man,she is SO nice!!

Okay,aniway..i sat down...and there was this guy....diagonally in front of me....i tot he p6 or wad.he has...this....ai...baby face?Anyway,i turned around just to look for people i noe...when all of a sudden ...I saw HIM.I almost fainted.I was like....WHY IS HE HERE?!and he came to sit next to that boy!!!In front of me!!!!

him...is.......JOEL SIM.

****

i hate it man.We both stay in punggol....suck in chinese and more or less get the exact same results.den our english...both go play the darn scrabble.NOW HE IS IN MY CHURCH???!!!!!!

hmmmmmPPPPPP...i was complaining to Mum and Dad...they were like...So whats the problem?

the problem is....!!!!er....!!!why is it he everything same as me!!!!*wails*NOT FAIRRRRRRRR!!!

and he is going for DARE camp!!!!

****

i am completely...URGH.

My daddy's God Lurve!!

2005-11-24T05:12:00.000-08:00

Im totally addicted to Mariah Carey's ,all i want for christmas is you.Even ain agrees.I think Ain starting to realize ive got VERY good taste.It's abt time gerl.Haha.

My sister wants to quit her piano lessons.What a giant waste.I hardly have time so i cant go for lessons and she hasnt taken a ingle exam and she wants to quit.I was like so fed-up with her.When she was practicing(after much protest),she played the notes all as 1 beat,but on the book,the notes were of different beats.I was like telling her to play properly...den she gave me her bitch face tt says "i don give a damn shit,and i don care."In her language,IM NOT LISTENING.U have no idea how bitchy she can get.My Mom heard me teaching her and she was like yea...ur teacher also says u neva read the minims and crotchets and semibreves.Den she didnt answer.She gave that black face agn.And made her "grunting noise".To me,sounds like a turkey trying to sound like a pig.She has been doing that alot these days.Pushing the blame on me.Even in the most ridiculous situations.So i was so angry at her i locked her out of the room.Since she didnt want to practice properly,what is the point of practicing?She didnt want to learn and her attitude was that of a spoilt brat.Den she cry.LIKE I CARE.Mom was like telling her that she shld have listen to me.Den mum ask if she wanna continue her lessons.She said no.She told dad it was because the teacher neva tell her all the hmrk.WHAT CRAP.She is just lazy to practice.

After her bathe,i went into the toilet.The whole floor was wet!not drips here and there.It was a PUDDLE of water.And can u believe this?She told my parents it was my fault.She said cause i banged into the toilet when she was bathing.EXCUSE MOI,MADAMOISELLE!The door was WIDE open.And cm on.Ur only 7!!!What is there to be private of?Ur even a shortie for ur age okay!Anyway,u were in the shower!The door was WIDE open.U neva bother to close it.So how was my barging in caused u to wet the toilet floor.U were in the shower for goodness sake!And she used up all the hot water.Next time,im bathing FIRST!!!

mutt.

Band tomorrow....xian man.I hate the math hmrk!I cant find the LCM.So many numbers!!!!And we learnt that in primary school aniwae.the teachers themselves said they wldnt test us on that for the exams.So why are u giving us this lame hmrk now?!So fed-up.Pissed.

So i wass pretty pissed todae.Looking forward tomorrow.Yes,there are auditions,BUT,hey,my daddy God will be there with me.Everything's gonna be smooth.Tomorrow is a new day.A new begining for more blessings and another walk with God.Im in better moods these days...not sure if i wanna compose such a sad song....hmmm...BUT...i cld twist the song abit.Instead of a song abt just crying.Maybe i shld make it into a song tt says that im gonna cry,to let go of my feelings in my tears and look forward to a brighter day.Even charis said my lyrics were really depressing.he chorus bit.lala.But i like it.Quite poetic dont chat think*nudge nudge*

Well my lovely audience,its time to move on!Iv got places to go,people to see!Who noes,maybe u'll see me in Hollywood tomorrow!Harhar!Ciao!

2005-11-23T01:10:00.000-08:00

Γειά σου (Geia sou)

That's in Greek.

okay...let's start today wif my apologies.

Ain,I am so sorry i cldnt pass eu the phantom of the opera disc again.I had my er......and went home earlier.It was so terrible....when i walking home...i lost so much...er...blood....that i almost fainted.i cldnt even bathe and spent most of my time crying.Weird rite..i cldnt even think straight...i just kept crying....Tho,now it's much better!

oh..and im so sorry about yesterdae.Yea,i think being just normie friends now is better.Maybe starting anew will let our friendship go on the right track this time.Well,lets see what happens:)

Auditions on Friday*groans*

During band,Mr Chua spent most of the time with my section,he always seems to be lingering around where we are.He played Lynn's Saxaphone,He is amazing!He gave such helping tips.I cldnt take my eyes off him when he was playing.I was studying his hand movements....his stomach and mouth on the mouth piece.I was so inspired to play like that.I cldnt wait till he stopped so i cld try.He said that with every note we should train our embrosure to be more flexible.Cause some notes need an extra tightening while others need to be relax.He also told us to train our ears to be as flexible as our eyes.When we see sumthing from afar,our eyes straight away can tell what it is,it will automactically focus.So in that way we should focus our ears to be able to tune the notes we play and become used to it.So that we can noe which notes to play with a softer embrosure or tighter.So right now im working pretty much on that.

I really want a black saxaphone with silver carvings.It will really shine out.Plus,itll look totally rad and jazzy and sexy,as a saxaphone should look.Hehe.

Mom's getting me chinese tuition.The TORTURE.tts cruel and unusal punishment.

oo....my televsion show is on!

Τα λέμε σύντομα.(Ta leme syntoma.)C'ya babes!Im going places!WEEE!

2005-11-22T03:41:00.000-08:00

i think the only reason why i made a phantom of the opera layout was because i wanted to have one of its songs on my blog.I had already found a poster wif Raoul and Christine faded,soit was pretty easy to make this one.

What is it with her and fate?Not just her...a few other ppl i know are also like that.Imagine...if your in coma...trying to fight back...there are only 2 choices,the will to live...or die.So what?Fate?!If u were in coma,do u mean its ur fate to die?!so u choose to let go....?Do u even noe what is fate?!There are choices in life.Everyday,every second,u have to make a choice in your life.....so based on the situation,u think tt's ur fate?Think abt this,in coma....u have the choice to live or die...if u so call "follow ur fate",that will lead u to death.U have the choice to live....u always have a choice..a positive choice..but u think because of fate and how everything seems to point u to a bad direction...u go tt way?Probably im not making sense...ill make it easier..by saying straight out.

Ain,Right now we seem to always face problems...our friendship is at stake and u say see if fate wants us to be friends?Right now....according to the situation and everything quarrel and bad occurence..ur so called "fate" is telling u to abandon our friendship....but u have another choice....to make this friendship work.That we can forget our differences and be REAL friends.....just because everything seems to be pointing tt we're beta off as Okay friends...doesnt mean tt's ur fate.I don beieve in fate.The choices we make in life are to help us.To give us chances to go back on the right track but if we "go wif the flow" in other words..listen to what the surroundings say....it will make u go off track....to make us not friends.I dont want tt Ain.Eva since when i was small i always wanted a friend in like movies all tt....where they're sooo soooo close...they do everyhting and anything together....like siblings.I dont mean we have to do everything together...but have that special bond...that closeness...

Do u noe what fate means?I even checked it up in the dictionary.U have no idea how much i want this friendship to work.Fate means, the power that some people believe controls everything that happens.

do u noe what is tt power which controls everything that happens in ur life?ITS YOU!!!

the choices u make determines how things turn out.I hope u choose not to give up.

I lurb eu so much!I dont want to eva lose u!If i did,tt wld be the one of the biggest regrets in my life.

by the way..yesterdae just feeling totally blue...so composed a lil verse....maybe ill make a song out of it.But its like pretty sad...so...hmm

"cry" these feelings im feeling inside.
My tears fall down my face.
Gone,washed away my precious pearls of tears..
each jewel holds a world inside
my world..
the feelings i "cry"

that's probably the chorus...give ur comments.Ill probably call it cry or pearls of tears

DD God's Beloved Princess

2005-11-21T03:16:00.000-08:00

Rite now,im just listening to A dream is a wish your heart makes,sung by a circle of stars.Made up of all the Disney Channel's faous stars.Like for eg.Raven,Alyson...i cant recognize the rest of the voices.I think Orlanda Brown is in too.

ai.....boring day.Band band band.getting really sick of it.Im always telling my seniors like how many hours there are left every like...2 minutes.HAHA.Cant wait to get out.I espacially hate it when the seniors take over at the end of band.They always seem to stretch time.Sometimes i think they do it on purpose.Everything smells evil.HMM.

Ive been like totally lonely during the hols.Its so.....DEAD.band band and more band...and on days wifout band....im at home...having lodsa dates wif the television and my disc-man.Cant wait for christmas and at the same time..SO NOT.why?well....we celebrate christmas is to celebrate the birth of Jesus,who saved us from the punishment and judgement of sin...so tt anyone believes in him will not go to hell and recieve the punishment.That is always where non-believers and even MANY christians are mislead.When God said in the bible tt Jesus came to save us from our sins,he meant the punishment we deserved for sinning,hell.People think tt it means tt we dont sin animore.That is so wrong!Man cant help sinning.Its our nature.That's why God sent his only son,Jesus to take our punishment of hell on the cross so that when we accept him into our live and accept God as our father we can go to heaven and be called his children.Isnt that wonderful?We still sin but we dont get any punishment.That also means rite now,living here on earth.We dont have to get sick,we can live properous,rich,wonderful,luxurious lives! and we dont have to pay a single cent,not a drop of blood.We dont deserve his death to redeem us,but becuase God loves us so much he let it happen.His grace saved us.Grace is undeserved favour...sumthing u dont deserve but u recieve.Thats the meaning of grace which also happens to be my name.wahahha.Thats why i love my name so much..it reminds me of His favour on me.My daddy God's great love,i am his lil princess daughter.Its more than wonderful to be called a child of God.His unmeasured love..His wonderful grace.I can tell u i dont say this because its sum religion of mine and i have to support it.NO.I say this becuase its the truth...even typing this i feel His love for me..it always brings tears to my eyes.Right now im listening to this Love song..its like He's singing it to me.Christianity is not a religion....its sumthing real...Its a relationship..a family relationship.It isnt like religions where they're god is so far away and sum king that we have to respect den he'll be good to us.God is my Daddy.Its so beautiful no words can describe.I can talk to him and he responds..NOT kidding or what other crap excuses u have.Pastors in church say tt we dont have to try so hard to listen to God's voice cause he is repsonding..but when we try so hard to listen its like we're making God speak when he is already answering..in tt way...we are deaf to his words...so the other day i was just casually saying to him is my head Dady God...and he was like...hmm?I got a lil shock...but was like so happy.*beams*HAPPY!!!!JOYOUS!!!!!WEEE!!!!!

there is so much to say abt a christians life....the miracles..healing...being a christian doesnt mean when we die we just go heaven..its means we have a Father..and tt NOTHING can harm us..we cant not EVER get sick...and we can be rich..we just have to have faith in him..believe him...and rest in him.God doesnt want us to work for thing.s.he doesnt want us to use our own human ability to get what we want..he just wants us to not worry....even worrying is a sin..did u noe tt?haha....its so wonderful...!!!!!!!!!!everyday...illl explain a lil bit abt God.I want the whole world to hear!!!!I just want to shout out what He has done for me....

Imagine...one day u were walking....and just suddenly u see a bullet heading straight at u....den out of a sudden... a man takes the bullet for u......and in his death...u were saved.That's how it is.But so MUCH more wonderful.u have no idea until u feel His love...to accept him.

U love me sooooo soooo much!DD God...u rawk!i lurb lurb eu

To my ever loving Father,for protecting me and loving me and for u being my everything

\\_phantom crazee_//

2005-11-18T04:51:00.000-08:00

Im going totally crazy BIG time over phantom of the opera songs.
Its a BEAUTIFUL show.My god-mother was crying as she watched it.Emmy Rossum who plays Christine is so mature.Voice-wise and looks.BUT she was only 16 when she acted in the movie.I love musicals,usually those that were originally on broadway.Like sound of music and Moulin Rogue and now Phantom of the Opera.The stories are so beautiful with music sung by TALENTED peeps.They cna sing SOOOO well.Like Emmy rossum and Ewan McGregor.In Moulin Rogue and Phantom,the stories speak of love.It's so sweet.
I had actually asked my god-mother whether the Phantom was nice and she said i would love it.She noes my taste pretty well because my family has this thing for music.Its in our blood.My god-mother was a singer,my uncle a musician and my dad has the most wonderful voice.he and my grandfather,but they never pursued that choice of career.The guy who acted as the Phantom has a really strong power to his voice.Its WOW.MAJOR.SUPERNOVA MAJOR.its so strong!!!!I love these kind of voices.These past few days ive been busying myself with listening to the Phantom of the Opera,Think of Me and an few other songs from the movie and singing along.That day i just played it and my Mum was working on the other computer next to me.I just sang along and all of a sudden she was like...."U want to go to a music school?"

WHOA.

was she hinting?Dad wants me to go to Juliette school of music..its like one of the best in the world.Its in Chicago,USA.WOW.*jumps up and down*heres they lyrics to think of me.a beautiful piece.I love the lyrics..they are so sincere yet meaningful..simple words but they mean alot and make so much sense.

Think of me
Think of me fondly when we've said goodbye
Remember me once in a while, please promise me you'll try.

When you find that once again you long to take your heart back and be free
If you ever find a moment spare a thought for me.

We never said our love was evergreen
Or as unchanging as the sea.
But if you can still remember
Stop and think of me.
Think of all the things we've shared and seen,
Don't think about the way things might have been.

Think of me,
Think of me waking, silent and resigned.
Imagine me
Trying too hard to put you from my mind.
Recall those days, look back on all those times,
Think of the things we'll never do.
There will never be a day when I won't think of you!
Flowers fade, The fruits of summer fade,
They have their seasons so do we.
But please promise me that sometimes
You will think...
(Opera singing)
Of me!

Isn't it so sweet?*sighs*At the end of the show,they showed the future in where raoul was really old and christine had already passed away.He went to her grave to place a music box with a monkey figurine that belonged to the Phantom.That was when he saw the rose on her grave...and only the Phantom gave her a rose......even though she chose raoul over the phantom,he loved her until the very end....isn't tt well..beautiful?haha.The poor phantom...when he was a kid..at a sort of circus thing where they kept him..they called im the Devil's child just because of his face infection....

came back frm band todae and mom said she bought me a watch...i was like"erm...okay Mom"i already had a watch tt cost $99.."den she showed it to me....OMGOSH.It is soooooo COOL.Its black and instead of the usual strap,it's made of beads.Those chinese beads.My sister chose a red one......the beads were red with the flower patterns on them.....my cousins one was a a pink...but when Mom showd me mine..i was screaming!!!Dad chose it fo me...it was black beads..the flowers really shone out on the dark colour....its...GORGEOUS!!My daddy has the best taste!!and i mean THE best!!!

im the happiest gal in the world.All thanks to me DD God!!!!I lurb lurb lurb lurb euuuuuu!!!!Because u first loved me and u gave me a watch!!!thru my parents.waha.COOOOLLLLLL.THANK YOU!!!!!wish i cld jump in ur arms and kiss ya tho..nvm..ill reserve tt for when im in heaven.YEEE HAH!!!

see ya'll!

So wad?Im HOTTER.[best statement of the year]

\\_LiL Babiess_//

2005-11-15T03:57:00.000-08:00

I LOVE BABIES!!!!!!
TODDLERS!!!!!!
They are just so cute!!!!
REALLY!
theres this ultra ultra cutie lil baby at mi house.His eyes are SOOOOO big!Everyone thinks he's a girl..they keep saying his pretty.Gosh..he is a beautiful baby boy..his eyes are so handsome.His Mom and dad are both attractive.OH!!!!He smiling at me!!!!*sighs and faint*
TOOOOOO CUTE!!!

i so wanna watch stuck in the suburbs...but...my house is invaded..theres the caregroup todae....hai...I wanna wanna watch!!!MOMMY!

tomorrow,mini funfair at St.Hilda's......am going...have to see Dove and the rest..and mi short lil "twin sis",VIKI!!!aha....who's Dove?Only my greatest BEST friend in DE wrld!!!!aahahahahaha.We became fast friends over the last few months of p6...weird..but hey....i ended up wif a best friend.We meet up sumtimes.I saw her that day at WTC...at the GIANT electronics department.WOW.she is SOOOOO tall.My mum and dad was like whoa.WAY whoa.

just chat to elfie..i guess..it really isnt safe to chat on msn...why do i bother going online...i have no one to tok to animore..no one..i can really trust...no one i can tell my problems out..in movies....like in stuck in the suburbs....the 2 main characters are like such close friends.....you know..they do EVERYTHING together..like family...sisters....REAL friends...

i want tt.DD God..i noe i have you...but i do want a mortal friend.I noe you just want me to rest...but it seems to be taking a long time for me to have tt kind of friendship.

not in the mood to blog animore...

she...its so hard to explain..i really treat her as my greatest friend

\\_QUIZZES4_//

2005-11-10T04:52:00.000-08:00

here are sum quizzes i took.

Men See You As Playful

Men want a challenge and you are the perfect playmate

You know how to push men's buttons and attract a wide range of guys

You enjoy living and loving - it's one of your most attractive qualities

Men are often consumed with desire for you, and you love that!

How Do Men See You?

NO!ME?!Playful!?HELOOO!!!!!ppl desire me and i like tt?usually im a lil flattered[c'm on,who won't be?]but i wld be a lil uncomfotable too!!!i attract guys?Push men's buttons?Whats is tt supposed to mean?I had beta not mean what i think it means!!!!!!!

You Are a Passionate Kisser

You are the most likely type to kiss a sexy stranger

Your kissing style is unpredictable and free spirited

You could kiss anyone at a drop of a hat

It's all about where your passion leads you

What's Your Kissing Style?

hah...excuse moi?

Your Scent is Key Lime

Sassy, real, and totally smooth

You're a total flirt who's always ready for a challenge!

What Scent Are You?

i..i...i'...i'm...a....a.....fll.....flllliirrrtttt?!

Your Fashion Style is Urban

You've got a style all your own... and it works

Not too trendy, not too freaky - you've got streetwear down to a science

You always look cute and put together, but keep it comfortable too

You're the type of girl that creates trends and inspires others to be funky

What's Your Fashion Style?

oo...finally!Sumthing i ACTUALLY agree wif

You Belong in London

A little old fashioned, and a little modern.

A little traditional, and a little bit punk rock.

A unique woman like you needs a city that offers everything.

No wonder you and London will get along so well.

What City Do You Belong In?

err....okay?

im tired.see ya'lol.Sayonara!

\\_Couch Potatoe in Me_//

2005-11-10T04:10:00.000-08:00

Salve!
Sorry i havnt been updating my blog....just..im gonna go on a..."computer strike".U call it as u see it alrite?I just..get really bored when i use the computer,ya noe.So,im just not gonna use the computer much animore.Why i'm bored?There isn't any1 i look forward to chat to on Messenger animore..*sighs*To all my friends:Hey..don't get hurt alrite?Its just...we chat in school there isnt much to chat abt on msn.So yea...

Now i spend most of my day watching my good ol' buddy,the television.He has neva let me down..except once when there was a major black-out.I call myself a couch-potato,but honesly,i don't think i am.Its not im "glued" to the set,its my solution to my feeling-bored attitude.
Heres mi TV schedule.Lol.
12.00p.m-Romeo[Nick,ch32]
4.30p.m-Lilo&Stitch[Disney,ch33]
5.00p.m-Sabrina,the animated series
5.30p.m-Totally Spies
6.00p.m-Kim possible
6.30p.m-X-men evolution[Cartoonetwork,ch35]
7.00p.m-That's So Raven[Disney Channel]

wow!That is a HUGE amount of time of brain waste.Hmm....alright let's cut it a lil.Each show 3o mins,and i watch like 7 shows a day.So 30 times 7=210 mins=3h30mins.
Sabrina is kinda too....predictable to me..so we'll cut tt out.Hmm...Lilo*Stitch is mostly reruns as well,So we'll cut tt out too.So in the end,i onli get 2h30mins of TV.Not bad eh?
I wacthed Princess Diaries2 agn.Have the DVD,really is conveniant.The first time i watched it,my first impression of Lord Nicholas Deveraux was like...he's yucks.But l8r on,when he was asking his Uncle to stop sabotaging Princess Mia and his uncle agreed,he smiled.THAT was when i totally reviewed my image impression on him.CUTE.His eyes are SOOO nice.I love eyes and the way people smile.And he has dark hair.So yea.here's a pic:

*squeals*

im not an idol-worship kinda gerl.he's cute,but HELLO.Reality check...he's 25 and i hav no idea where he lives.I love his Nicholas Character,not HIM.Some people go crazy over actors and actresses because they think they're nice.HELLOOOOOO.it's their role in the movie.They may not be like tt.

So,now i don't have much to do at home,im starting on homework.AND am thinking of going downstairs and sketching anyhing i see and like.And maybe come up wif a new tunes?I want to compose a song.I'm starting everything a new..so,u might as well say this is my first song.Hey,put God first in everything right?So,im gonna write a praise and worship song to Jesus.I was thinking of getting inspiration frm the Bible.I've been reading it alot recently,there's this hunger and determination you know.Wow.Thanks DD God.

i was also thinking of finishing up trying to play Anastasia's the movie theme song,At the begining.No,i don't have the sheet music for it.But God gave me the ability to be able to hear and play it on the piano.Im quite proud of that fact.Honestly,i neva realised it was much of a talent.I tot anyone cld do it.Well maybe any1 can[hope not]if they put their heart into it..ut it cums quite easil to me..i just remember the tune on my head..play around wif the keys on the piano..and a few mintues l8r...i have part of the tune down already.Really,is tt a talent?I remember Dad when i was really small.I hadn't learn to play the piano yet den.He played Doe a deer on the piano and he asked me to give it a try.I just stared at him.I mean,i had NO knowledge of music whatsoever.Den he said Yes,u can.and he played half of it,getting the notes down just by the music in his head..he did it halfway.and in a few days..i finished the song frm where he left off.Dad is probably my inspiration to music.He can sing really well.I look up to my dad alot...even tho..we...i dont tell my dad stuff.We have a really weird father-daughter relationship.He's like my pillar..my role model..u noe..i look up to him..i feel proud tt he's my dad..no one cld replace him.And even tho we don't hug animore and stuff like tt...i noe he loves me very much..he's always there to support me in my hobbies..my music..html..he teach me and leads me to things tt is not easy for other ppl to do.Ways the world think is impossible or just too hard to try.like playing music just by hearing..sumthing like tt...and alot of other things..all he has to do is just tell me that u can do this and dat.It's possible and i feel tt i want to show him tt yes i can do it...and do,do it.Like html..i neva learnt frm anybody...he said we cld learn ourselves...Mum told me tt when i was still in her womb..at night b4 going to bed..he wld sing to my me..hehe..to my mom's stomache.I definately will do tt.Lol.i wonder if the babies inside can really hear.

wow..so much said...i tot there was nothing to tell since ive just been a couch potatoe these days.Ciao!

\\_wildness_//

2005-11-07T04:58:00.000-08:00

Hola!
tt's hi in Spanish.

well....what ive been up to?i was so lazy to blog so started out at the boards....looking at peeps guild ads*groans*promised this gerl i'd join hers......wadev....so am not joining..its like nowsadays all the guilds are sexists...the celebs and other stuff are the gerls....the dark stuff the guys.its times like these when i miss TRP..and when i miss TRP....*groans*..i think abt him...CJT...stand for HOT..MAJOR HOT...Christopher Jason Taylor...his name is Jason.weird rite?wadev..i love his name.He's eurasian.HOT HOT HOT*drools*what sucks is tt we used to like each other so crappy much...u cld say love...but a long distance relationship is tough...the last time we chat...we sorta admitted to each other tt we still had feelings....tt we neva stopped loving the other...but he had another gerl..i think they're still together...ah hah.she cld stand a long distance relationship.checked up on his user page...i miss him....ah...but i wldnt dare keep in contact wif him animore...we just CANT be.....dont get me wrong..i don have feelings for him animore...its just..its sad tt we cldnt be what we cld have been..
i miss him as a friend..sum1 to tok to..nowsadays...im just totally bored on the internet...and tt makes me get mi wild attitude agn...the i-wanna-go-out-and-meet-sum1.

honestly.....i just wanna meet sum guy...so i can forget another guy..him him...i cant still be feeling for him ite?i mean to me..its like...he's gone alreadi..
it hurts so much to love sum1 and in the end...he just stops loving u..in the blink of an eye..
what sucks...its gonna be hard to replace him...ah...my future is in God's hands..DD...i noe u have sum1 great out there for me...but....I WANT HIM NOW!!!!!!hai....

Darling,Goodbye to you
goodbye to everything i tot i knew
u were the one i loved
the one thing tt i tried to hold on to....

hai..any1 looking for a friend?i don care..even if u sum grandmother..TALK TO ME!!!!*sobs* chocotie_sw3tie@hotmail.com ...i think im becoming cycotic.......
u noe i have this funny gut in my stomach tt tells me im not marrying chinese.Lol.COOL.i want my kids to be mixed blood.cool cool.LOL.and i also have this feeling in me tt says im not gonna stay in singapore for very long...lala....i think my Dad wants to go?chicago is it?or NYC...hmm...wont mind living in switzerland...chocolates..YUM.LOL.hmmm...den theres Mexico...and Netherlands......ah..live in paris.COOL.lol.niaha.hm...its either America or the UK.
Kim's all for australia....the place is pretty okay to me lar.

was at band just now...*yawns*i was so urgent for the loo...den suj adn MinMin was like teasing me..they kept making the "shhh" sound..u noe like the peeing sound...yea.....*fumes*wadeva lar dem.i can tahan okay!!!!*sticks out tongue*Ms liong was saying calling out the horns and Saxaphone section..den she said sax....everyone started laughing..u noe..like sex.....she said we're all perverse.LOL.
talking abt sax...erhem! sax and not sex..yea aniwae....just saw this guy's user page..says he's in band and plays the saxaphone..and is a drummer...cool sia.
aha.u have the title of "sexy" as long as u play the saxaphone...playing it has made a change in my lip shape...MUCH nicer.seriously.but causes blisters in ur mouth too...*grimaces*

lips lips lips.....hmm...gerls....dont get a guy wif very thin lips..tt aint good..of course dont get a guy wif FULL THICK lips!tt's......er..*shivers*...just nice ya noe...good to kiss...ahaha.Glad my lips are quite fine.=)*beams*Lol.hmm..maybe tts why a saxaphone called a saxaphone..cause it makes ur lips look sexier...but den to keep things a lil..not so perverse..they call it saxaphone instead of sex.LOL.WADEVA Nalz~
ahahahaahahahahahahahaha.....writing in mi blog is really great.....i get to throw out all my feelings.....write weird stuff..abt lips....anything and everything.instead of containing them in my head...u guys have no idea how much i talk to myself...sumtimes i get worried tt theres sumthing rong wif me....now i noe..im just a gal tt think TOO MUCH.Lol.

heres me signing off~
Adiós!Hasta pronto![see u soon!]

Am gonna have kids MUCH cuter than tt.Heehee:D

\\_Quizzes 3_//

2005-11-04T03:35:00.000-08:00

Yep!MORE quizzes.Im a...Quiz fannatic.Lala.

You are a Great Girlfriend

When it comes to your guy, you're very thoughtful

But you also haven't stopped thinking of yourself

You're the perfect blend of independent and caring

You're a total catch - make sure your guy knows it too!

Are You a Good Girlfriend?

You Are Midtown

You love so many things, you don't fit into any one label.

Your city girl persona goes to a fancy restaurant one night and a dive bar the next.

Are You Uptown or Downtown?

Yes!This is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO me!I love both downtown and uptown.Hey..goes wif the mood rite?

Your Reputation Is: Sweet Girl

While you're well known, there's nothing to worry about.

You're reputation is mostly good - as good as any rep can be.

What's Your Reputation?

i get this to much.Lol.

Your Inner Retro Girl Is

1960s Mod Girl

What Retro Girl Are You?

All they asked was for me to type my name..."-_-

You Can Hang With the Guys and the Girls

You've struck a good balance between girlie and laid back.

You can keep it casual but when you dress up, you are as girly as the next girl.

How Girlie Are You?

tt actually sounds good=)

okay..heres me,signing off.buh-bye.

\\_Jesus Rawks!_//

2005-11-04T03:03:00.000-08:00

Iyi aksamlar! Tanistiimiza memnun oldum!
Hello/Hi!Nice to meet you! in turkish.

Okay....so i went to Gleneagles hospital for my checkup.Heres the thing,doc. says the problem i have can reoccur...and so he checked and he was like ur hand has really healed nicely and u can move it well and funtionally.I NOE there was a hint of amazement in his voice.Ahah!Dude,Jesus healed me,man.I dont need u to tell me tt.The tumor is NEVER coming back to me.NEVER shall it reoccur.Yea,all Glory goes to God.Amen.Jesus,u rawk!Oh yea....during the checkup the doc.was like...ur hand is so small.cant play guitar.

"-_-

excuse me?i dont care.I WANT to play the guitar.

Anyway..on the way there,on the MRT to meet Dad for lunch,Mum filled me in on the details at KoKo's house yesterdae.I missed Auntie Lily!She was there!*sobs*and miss Uncle...er...wass his name?sorry lar....i got so many uncle and auntie..he got like 5 bro and sis alreadi.hai...Koko is my grandfather's sis.I think him Amran or sumthing like tt.Ah,ill just call him my cookie monster..he is one of mi fave uncle!Not married..but he handsome ar he.So ladies..*cough cough*go get 'm.I call him cookie monster CAUSE...he love to bake cookie!and he's VERY good at it.I lurb his moon cookie..its sugar powdered wif peanut and sumthing inside..it MELTS in ur mouth the moment ur tongue touches it.i miss cookie....*sigh*

ah aniwae...his neice..my couz..19 years old.Her bf came wif his friend to Koko's house.My mum say his friend the hair SOOOOOO cool.she say he spike den it was highlighted and all.Mum says he DARN HANDSOME.*drools*sounds delicious.AHHH!She can tell me den never give me his number..what sia Mom.ah...ask me couzie for mr.hottie number.LOL.as if i bother.but he sounds HOT man.he mixed blood.COOL.hahahahaha.

aniwae was wondering why My grandfather NEVER keeps in touch wif Koko...not one of my uncles and aunties keep in touch wif my grandfather's side..and was wondering why.G-pa got like 20+ bro and sis.Yep.My great g-pa "active" man.*whistles*ah..Mom told me another family feuge.*groans*Koko told my g-pa not to marry g-ma.den until NOW...g-ma still hold grudge.hai..actually..Koko is right lar....but den i wldnt be born rite.Aniwae...Dad very close to g-pa's side.I love g-pa's side THE MOST.they're the nicest kindest sweetest.g-ma forbid my uncle and aunties and father to mix with g-pa's side..but dad don care cause he very close to cookie monster.Hahaha.Heard tt last time when g-pa went to the hospital..KKo's side all and cookie monster all go visit him...den they say g-ma.g-ma not hapiee lar..so keep quiet..tt's why she never tell us.Only yesterdae Koko told Pappi[Dad].hai.......Auntie Lily also had conflict with Goodma...tt's why they neva keep in touch now.hai my grandmother...see lar..she and her pride and hate.g-pa got 20 OVER bro and sis..i probably have ALOT of couzies...*sigh*...theres like a hole in mi family..ANYONE cld be my cousin..........*sigh*hai.....miss Koko's smiling face and COOKIE MONSTER!!!ah..next year..i move butt go visit 'em....haha..aniwae..they live a few bus stops away.

Went to Taka wif Mom and Pappi...shop and shop and shop.Doughnutsd..Lodsa doughnuts.and YAKITORI!yum yum yum..bought back Omu rice.ish this rice wif mushrooms..whateva stuff eu want...wrapped in egg and den add tomatoe sauce..YUM.so full...think im gonna barf...*turns green*

Dark,with a hint of sexiness.

\\_cookie me_//

2005-11-03T03:44:00.000-08:00

Salut!Comment allez-vous ?
haha.Let me explain,it means Hello/Hi!.How are you?In french of course.I think i shall try Turkish tomorrow.Haha.I have this thing for Spanish and French.Greek and Hebrew and Japanese too...oh this list goes on.

Sorry havnt been blogging.Didnt really want to blog abt yesterdae.Tot it was gonna be a fun day,but...well...it didnt turn out to be fun.Ah well,i enjoyed the movie.Zorro's wife is gorgeous.Haha...his son is SOO cute.

Right now,père[Father] and mère[Mother] are away at Koko's house fer Hari Raya.Last min sms..so yea.Im stuck wif my sis...we just wanted to stay home and watch this Barbie movie.barbie and the magical pegasus...ar..sumthing like tt.Yes,barbie.Lol.NOT childish.seriously..the graphics..MAN THEY'RE GOOD.Horrifically GOOD.And the storylines are interesting and romantic.Fairytales...mm....dont u agree?Okay aniwae..just finished the movie and me and Titia were putting back the disc when we realized tt we have ALL 6 of the Barbie movies.hahahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.Hey,seriously.They're GOOD.the graphics and everything.and the storyline.=)bah...call me childish if ud like.I dont care.

grand-mere's[grandmother's]b.dae todae.Went to this chinese restaurant.YUM.GOOD food.haha.I went up to bata to find my grandparents.grand-mere was buying shoes..for...guess what.....DANCING!!!!i was like...HUH?DANCING?! den she's like...yea..dancing.*faints*For christmas i think.I think i shld start a christmas count down..and wif every passing day..state a wish.Niaha.Yes..après-demain[tomorrow],i shall start.ahak.OOO! parents are back!
after lunch..we went SHOPPING.Bought a cool notebook and bookmark.On the cover there's this body of a girl...but they fade the body..and the clothes..they colour it..to make it "shine out".so cool and classy.Bought a pen for it as well.=)lala.Yea...happie happiee happiee.

yea..happiee...talkin to elfie abt happiness......ha..ha....
i jhave this thing for notebooks..it looks so clean i just wnana feel its pages...and if the notebook is like used or wat..i i accidentally..."dirty" it..i just hate it....weird rite?Lol.i have a WHOLE collection of notebooks.hahahahahaahhaha.Im so expensive to keep.*sigh*talking wif elfie abt boys......gets me moody....hai............................................................................................

oh yea.I got....*drumroll* COUNCIL SPACE.ahahahahahaha.yea...im good sia.now all other MMF membies gonna like "look up to moi"LOL.no lar..but..hey..i get graphics site..TOTAL control.Html Mistress.niaha.

-Feminie and sleek-

\\_HOLS DAY 1_//

2005-10-30T20:13:00.000-08:00

Hols day 1

Hihi ppl!
just feeling bored so here i am,blogging.There isnt much to say i guess.Just been looking at celeb graphics.Gosh,i love the brush effects.Im not a fan of any celeb but hey,if u have the brushes and effects and all tt...i wont mind doing celeb graphics...or make mi own celeb guild.Think im gonna leave MMF.get'n boring.....but cant bear to leave zapp and pixie and Lana and emma.*sighs*

Been get'n hooked to Relient K.'s Be my escape and Jessica Simpson's Irresistable.How abt more quizzes yea?dum de dum.Still patiently

You Are a Very Good Girl

You are 90% Good and 10% Bad

You're a perfect angel - almost impossibly so

Don't you ever feel like being a little bad?!?

Are You a Good Girl or a Bad Girl?

Im an angel=)

Your Celebrity Sisters Are Jessica and Ashlee

Beautiful, feminine, and stylish.

Who care's if you're a bit of a daddy's girl?

Who Are Your Celebrity Sisters?

tt's so weird...i was just thinking i wasnt much a fan of the simpson sisters.oh well.They're both good singers..?i guess.Ashlees talented..so....why not?

HAHAHA..took this hair quiz.they say my ideal hair style is long BOB.AHAHHAHAHA.what on earth is tt?haha...i don feel like taking the darn quiz animore man.HAHAHAHAHA....
will be back...*winks*

Hey guys!Im back!Nothing much happened todae.Fufilled one of my wishies tho.i watch monster-in-law.Haha..its so cute.i love J Lo...she can act and sing and she is gorgeous.she has very beautiful eyes.Ain wants me to bring her skin "to live".She did a rough sketch.I think it's gonna look pretty cool.Maybe watching legend of zorro with Kim wednesday.that is IF i am happy enuff to move my butt outta the house.oo..went to the dematologist just now.i saw the doc. for like 5 mins..but i stayed in the hospital for like 1 hr.sheesh...they took ever to get m creams and whatevelse.qizzes quizzes.hooked..yes babe...

You are Wedge Sandals

Bohemian and sexy

You're a free spirit - both in life and in fashion

You have a style all your own, and it turns heads!

What Kind of Sandal Are You?

Sounds so cool!lala..tho i dont where high heels..they spoil the feet.no point wearing nice shoes when u have terrible feet rite?always take cre of ur natural features..den further wif clothes.=)One more quiz okay?

Your Element is Earth

Your power color: yellow

Your energy: balancing

Your season: changing of seasons

Dedicated and responsible, you are a rock to your friends.

You are skilled at working out even the most difficult problems.

Low key and calm, you are happiest when you are around loved ones.

Ambitious and goal oriented, you have long term plans to be successful.

What Element Are You?

Wow!seems pretty cool.More quizzes tomorrow.See ya'll.I feel like im being used just for making ppl's blogskins....den dey say lurve me....u lurve my service to u..not me..BUT..i don take any to heart..i don mind lar.

\\_QUIZZES2_//

2005-10-30T04:17:00.000-08:00

Im back!
went to have dinner and watch x-men2 on star movies.
Todae's solidrock mag(MY church's magazine) had an article on christian bloggers.I'm one!*take out banners to support**waves waves*
haha.It says the diff between a believer and non-believer is tt a believer will have mircales and belssings God gave him/her in his/her life.In tt way,we show the awesome glory of God.COOL.Yea....God has just done so much for me.Today just really felt his presence at church.That beautiful loving feeling.Christianity is not a religon.Religion..is sumthing u believe in..like a philosophy...tells u how to live life....like a system tt explains life and death.Chrsitianity is an enormous loving relationship with God.He's our Father,friend,Saviour..it's just....so wonderful.In Him,i have found everything.

Todae's msg was on the like the key to Sarah's strength and youthfulness.Jesus liked her attitude....it was to enjoy..the pleasure...enjoy in his presence.Enjoy being wif God and u dont have to worry abt the results...they'll come to u.Haha..isnt tt wonderful?religions tell u to work for sumthing to get results ..do this and tt..u get this and that.But God just wants us to rest..and enjoy being wif him.To look to him...and the results we want just cum to us.Isnt that great?His love for me is just so awesome..i dont have to sweat....or work...he gives me results..EXCELLENT results and just asks me to rest.That's it.like WOW.

Went to this buffet to celebrate Mom's and her sis b.dae.Not twins but have the same b.dae.Cool huh?Internationl buffet.LikeYUM.Pasta,Pizza..ice cream,cakes..ham and eggs....YUMALOTS.haha.Thank you God,for the delicious food.mmm...living in a life of luxury.*drinks coconut cocktail*ahhhhhhh.....-grins-

nothing much happend todae..so here are more quizzes...let's see....which one shall i do?oo..there's this sexy vibe thing.

Your Vibe is Super Sexy

You feel 100% sexy at almost any moment

And this inner sexiness really does boost your appeal

You're confident, playful, and outgoing

You know what you have to offer - and you're proud of it!

How Sexy Is Your Vibe?

oo....im so hooked.Lets try another!wee!

You Are a Carnation

You are down to earth and grounded.

You tend to be more traditional than trendy.

Your confidence gets you through anything.

People trust you and are very loyal to you.

What Flower Are You?

So not me,but hey.wadev.Im NOT traditional.ooo.toking abt traditional..i went to Katong once...perenakan place...and went into Bebe's..its this really expensive perenakan shop and gallery.Aniwae..saw this pic of a model..VERY modern.she was wearing a kebaya wif a thin tube top inside and 3/4 creme pants.Looked so hip.I think i shall try tt one day..hmm.. a vintage..with a modern touch.HAHA.oo..lets try ANOTHER quiz.

Your Dream Engagement Ring Has a Heart Diamond!

You wear your heart on your sleeve, so of course you should also wear it on your ring.

A heart diamond is the perfect choice for highlighting your passionate disposition.

Only a true romantic can get away with wearing this ring. Luckily, that's you.

And only a true romantic can give you this ring, so make sure you find him...!

What's Your Dream Engagement Ring? Take This Quiz :-)

Find the Love of Your Life
(and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

OOOOOO!*hints*ahahahahaha.

see ya'll tomorrow...with lodsa updates!Tag moi abt the skin okay?is it beta than modernbabe?so far i have 2 such comments.I really want to like..IMRPOVE with every new skin i make*beams*okay..its an icon todae.

-Does this mean im marrying rich?-

\\_QUIZZES_//

2005-10-30T02:52:00.000-08:00

Yo dudettes and dudes![hey,ladies first rite?]
hahaha.
i took sum cool quizzes todae.Have to thank Kasumi(dilah) fer the link.Love u to bits gal!
heres a chocolatey one.hehe.She got the same results as moi.

You are Milk Chocolate

A total dreamer, you spend most of your time with your head in the clouds.
You often think of the future, and you are always working toward your ideal life.
Also nostelgic, you rarely forget a meaningful moment... even those from long ago.

What Kind of Chocolate Are You? Take This Quiz :-)

Find the Love of Your Life
(and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

ooo...heres a nail polish one.

Your Nail Polish Color is Purple

How you're unique: You are artistic and expressive

Why your style rocks: You pay special attention to color and fabrics

What this color says about you: "I'm creative and know how to take care of myself"

What Color Nail Polish Best Fits You?

haha....like wow....purple suits moi?neva knew.i tot red always suited me.heres a celebrity twin one.

Your Celebrity Style Twin is Paris Hilton

Sassy, sexy, and totally hot!

Who's Your Celebrity Style Twin?

*faints*

tt's it....im gonna..stop...here.....*runs to the toilet*

\\_HOT GUYS_//

2005-10-29T05:01:00.000-07:00

Ni Hao!
ive just been reading Lime's interview with westlife.Used to lurb 'em.Always liked Mark's looks.Shane's a dad now,wif a 12 week old baby.He seems realli sweet when he toks abt his family.here..ill copy it fer ya.

Hey slow down, you just became a Daddy.How's ur baby doing?
oh.Nicole is great!She's 12 weeks old now and she hasn't uttered her first word.I can't wait for her to take her first step.My wife,Julia,is looking the best she's ever looked.All the weight is gone and she looks fantastic.

Isnt tt just like way swit?They asked abt his baby and he also praises his wife.That's it.My future-husband has to be like tt.*points points*Haha.heres another REALLY sweet part.

Do you help to change ur daughter's nappies?
Yeah,i do all tt.I'm a full-time Dad.Waking up in the midde of the night is the most difficult duty of all.But it's so much joy to spend time with my lil daughter.She's so beautiful.Ive started playing music for her lately.She likes Robbie williams a lot!She started smiling when he came on the radio.

He so totally Loves his daughter.
Have just been thinking abt guys tt are hot to me.The kind of guy i find hot is really..hard to explain.Hmm..but in terms of looks...I like tan guys.Not THAT tan..but hey...tan.Just nice..and nice dark brown hair.And soft deep hazel eyes.Sounds delicious?I neva cld go for the whole blond look.Those blue bright eyes....are...just..i dunnoe..i like dark and soft.Guys tt are mysterious and not loud.They can be fun and quiet at times.Sum1 open and romantic.He wld be original and like things for being it and not because every1 else likes them.I just havnt seen a cute guy in a long time...i dont want to think abt HIM....its no point...he's leaving*sighs*oh well.I accepted tt alreadi...im just fine.Just tt...come on...i noe im not tt kind tt sees a hot guy..my kind of hot guy and falls straight for him.But still...i need to see a cute face once ina while rite?hai...what totally sucks is tt the kind of guy i like..the qualities..looks..everything...i found it in him.*sighs*After him...i seriously cant think of going for a guy tt isnt what i want.Its just so sad....the kind of guy i want..i always tot i wld NEVER find sum1 like tt...but..i did..but..i lost him.or am losing him.*sigh agn*ah...let Daddy God take care of tt for me.You know whats funny?As long as i think abt my dream-guy....sunsets and sunrises and skyscrapers cum into my mind.Lol.im a really romantic and deep person.aww....

EEWWW!!!Yu de's nick is like Joel did sumthing "wonderful".
EWWWWWW!!!What's wrong wif ya'll?

todae's just been so boring.Nothing to do.its just com....cant chat to Zapp...hai..she's busy preparing for halloween and having fun with her kids.yep.She's 29.hehe..and has an awesomely sweet lil girl.i have alot of mum-friends.....weird rite?and there's emma..same age as urs truly.den...hmm..LANA!Yep she's 19.haha.den pixie....neva knew her real name or age.These days..just been thinking about Jason lods...tt guy really made an impact on my life.U guys will NEVER know who.Not been thinking in like.."love" way...just..thinking...they're called "memories".

oh yea!Heres the new blogskin i made.U guys dig?Guitars..i love the pink one.So extra extra cool.haha..my so called.."brush effects" are just made frm fonts.HAHA.my fav font in the whole world..tho the name sounds like a drug.cocaine.."-_-wonder why they call it tt.So against smoking/drugs..wadeva crap..we "teenagers" supposedly do.Not ALL teenagers are like tt.Take me for example.I cld neva understand why ppl slash they're wrists for fun.Im scared of pain and blood.Plus...it leaves scars rite?ur like so "uglifying" ur wrist.Sheesh..nowsadays ppl just dont noe how to take care of they're bod.tsk tsk.

Yesterday cleaned up the class.Became hannahrella...or nalarealla...whicheva sounds nicer to u.haha.

oh yea...guess never really explained the whole nalz nickname.Hannah and nalz..where is the resemblance?well..since birth i was called Nana..hannah seemed too formal for my family.they only call me tt when they were scolding me.nana..just a simple nicky..but just recently found out it does have a meaning.Its apple in Japanese.Oh well..Nana seems weird for my friends to call me...so all mi friends called me Nala..sum1 told me its the name of the lioness Simba fell in love wif in Lion King.(haha)wadeva//i fancy the name.den Nala shorten to become Nalz=) hehe...Hannah is a Hebrew name.the real thing is shannah i think.sumthing like tt.Hannah is also french.My family has sumthing abt french....my father and his sister learnt french..yea...

Okay...so im gonna check on Zapp and her lil daughter now.see ya'll

\\_MUM'S BIRTHDAY_//

2005-10-27T05:34:00.000-07:00

Bonsieur Madamoiselles and Moseuirs![i think my french spelling wrong..my french is terrible..dont blame me]

okay.Yep!Mum's b.dae...i kinda...forgot..heh heh..Saw the card Dad gave her....it so romantic and sweet!Neva knew Dad was like tt...aww....so swit.Okay...when shes not looking..im gonna like copy the words tomorrow den u guys can see how sweetaliscious and romantic my dad is.
hehe.*jumps up and down*ITS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO Sweet..hai..*sigh* Overjoyed DD God has chosen my kind of hottie for me as mi future-husbnad*winks*lalaz.patience patience.hahahahaha.And even after how many million years.....we will still be deeply in love.THAT is true love.

I had actually wanted to change my blogskin,but unfortunately...i just cant get into blogskins..i keep getting the page cannot be displayed message.*groans*Nvm den,tomorrow yea?By the way,my blogskin has 21 HITS!!!yes yes...and like this lil honey considered my skin her fav.Total sweetie.

So wanna thank Amelia for sharing radioblogskin to me.All the "rare" songs i cldnt fine..well.I FOUND THEM!!!*jumps jumps jumps*Amelia and edmerson sitting on a tree..K-I-S-S-I-N-G!!!LAlalalala.hehe....darl ur in LOVE.nice piercings babe.

MY Kim(winks at Ain) was like cuming to me todae and she was like Cindy got 2 a1s!!I was just staring at her and was like"i got 4"..................................................

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

-forever mocking the neubronner-

Kel,Cleo and myself just kept laughing at Ignatius todae.He sat beside us.For the Q&A session,he answered like almost alll the questions but HAHA The guys gave all the sweets to the other dudes and not him.den he was like clueless and fed-up.HAHAHAHAHAHA.Darling Igiee..try harder next time.HAHA.den the Forum session..he went up to make a suggestion and he was like so shy...Ain and mie laughed at him.HAHA.....seriously man..the n2 guys..haha...Ignatius...haha..can u talk not shout?hahahahahaha..u seriously VERY loud.its like u cant talk.HAHA.den they were like where is so-and -so..den he was like..at Reuben's house..."-_-..wadeva lar Igster.den say what geylang..tanah merah..what sia.....hhahahahaha..i kept laughing at u.Haha..was totally crap'n wif Kel during the forum.haha....Cleo seriously pointed at Igster and laughed rite at him.hahahahahahahahaha.

-oooo...isnt she just such a sweetie?-

\\_JOEL:STRIPPER_//

2005-10-26T05:21:00.000-07:00

Bonjourno!Sorry..i kinda stopped mi lil tradition a few posts.Started agn.hehe..so u guys dont have to worry.Been really pissed and angry todae...hai...

okay okay..i lied....its beta...i noe it just not gonna be.Its impossible..but hey i noe..Anything is possible wif God..but...i just dont want it now...im tired of tt pain..if we're...meant or wad...just not now.Maybe one day we'll meet agn.its beta he thinks tt way...Probably u guys dont understand..its not meant to be understood...its a dark secret....no one can eva noe.

I really awated to give up on this whole thing..but Martin knocked sum sense into Me.thanks dude...no one cld ask 4 a beta fren like u.hai...its like i neva really fit in wif my friends..the chinese gals in class..are just TOO ..u noe wad..i just dont fit in.and the malay gals....haha..even elfie finds it weird tt i hang wif them.Not much to blog toade.It was like really boring...and i ont feel like recounting todae's events.

oh yea..Joel stripped his shorts...for like $1.50 for 10 seconds.....the other boys paid him.He really strip ar....i tot he was just like action and joking but he really strip..admit saw a LITTLE bit...bit only alrite?I didnt noe!tot he was lying!!!All the gals were like covering our eyes....den Norman was like ..we guys paid for u to watch and u neva watched.WHAT?!Yu de and Leon actually contributed!!!OMG!not gonna describe..so sick..*shivers*tt fella so cheap man..iddy was like she wld charge $99.."-_-..OMG.No money cld eva pay for sum1 to see my bod.Even so..why Joel so cheap?dont treasure his bod.He kissed how many gals alreadi...hai...no one can EVA touch or see me naked half nakes or wadeva..unless of course the dude's mi husband.Guys and gals..always treasure ur bd..and save it for ur future-partner okay?Den the whole wait will be worth it..ur saving urself for tt special person.I noe nowsadays...sex is like common and there almost seem nothing wrong wif it.But dont go with what the world thinks..be unique..and special.Save urself for tt special sum1 okay?Dont pls have tt mentally tt u do it for experience so u can give tt special sum1 more..er..."fun".NONONO!wrong wrong..the best gift u can give ur husband/wife is total trust.When u do it wif sum1 ur like giving up ur virginity and trusting tt person wif it.Dont sell ur bod away...dont waste it like tt...

eeks!Why am i even toking 'bout this*runs away**comes back*But really take my words.

-U can be hot and sexy..but ALWAYS treasure ur body-

\\_DUM DE DUM_//

2005-10-25T03:13:00.000-07:00

Hmmm....went to S'pore Discovery Centre.Seems im always getting stuck with Syahieda[according to iddy's spelling tho i think ish Syhieda]...hai...she can get pretty mean sia...Zhi yong and myself were like so tired,so we slept on the bus on the way back to school...Azam told me she wanted to take a pic of us slp'n.Tok'n abt slp'n....Isabelle has funny sleepin habits.OH YEA!why is it tt we ALWAYS gt stuck wif her..i mean like..if there anything she'd always ask if she cld join us...why dont u go ask selina,Pei Yi or Arielle.She's quiet but tt gal can seriously get mean.Tt's what i totally dont like.

we watched 2 movies there.One was on the...Sharkalton's? Antarctica trip.Yep..watched tt like 2 times alreadi.."-_-..it seems every year i go to the SDC to watch tt movie.The other movie was the S'pore defence thing..there was not much of a storyline and no narrative....it was just..watching peeps in action...yea...the survey we had was SOOOO NOT relevant to the trip.I took tt survey b4.....hai...i hate reruns of movies....and now surveys too?!sheesh... Iddy and Ain get'n very well...crappy together.haha...erm..good lar...

During break every1 take pics lar..den what say...Ms.thang say i "spoil-sport".WHAT?!den say i shy summore....eh..wadeva lar 'cher.I have my reasons for not taking pics with them lar....Ain is hiding sumthing frm me.On her blog shes says sorry sum1 will try harder to take MY pic.....wonder who's the person.Psycho man..who wants pics of ME?!....

ah...Martin leaving so fast...and he told me next year after his exams but Ain says confirmed 19 nov...hmm....is he leaving earlier to forget me and push me out of his life so tt i neva existed to him?i dont understand....he's not online..how can i ask him....Ain says he's avoiding me..she says cause he doesnt wnat me to get hurt..so him leaving earlier wld be beta.When u leave is not the matter....its ur leaving tt will hurt me.But its like..theres no way to stop this pain..love is love...u just have to face it..but after tt..i can just respect it and continue life...so why did u go and change the date...hai..we cld have had one more year together...so..when u go to Europe...are u going to erase all contacts with me..and make me non-existent in ur world...tt hurts more...Even if u leaving earlier....do u have to avoid me now?we can still chat.I'd rather have memories chatting and remembering u den just leaving one giant hole den when u leave..it'll just feel...so wasted and meaningless.I noe he wants to go and study.Besides,music is his future and tt's important to him.As long as he's happy im fine.=)but.. u cant even want us to be friends?u want to totally forget me...tt just hurts alot..Ive fallen to deep in this love to not feel the pain of u leaving...but its okay.After tt "mourning" time[haha] i'll be fine=)so u don have to worry abt me being hurt..i love u so much..more than u'll eva noe...

-Love is as free as a butterfly.-

I LOVE HIM!

2005-10-24T00:55:00.000-07:00

heesh..like the layout?I do.definately.Well,i chose it cause of the words "im in love"...yes i am.HAHA.in lurb wif chocolates.!!!HAHA.trick u guys.nah..but seriously.Best frens noe...they're like don be shy and 'fess up.Im....well..TOO shy...hai..he hasnt been online.i miss him.

Okay,the wedding dinner..it was pretty okay.as it usually is.This time was a lil diff tho.The bride and groom had they're....what u call tt?er..R.O.M at the dinner itself.The Justice is WAYYYYYY weird...Mum says his chinese..i so dont believe tt.he talked like....sum kind of cartoon.seriously.*shivers*The food was great!Usually the same..first was the chilled shrimps and mango on a platter wif duck and sum other stuff.2nd course was the SHARKS FIN SOUP!!!!Love love!!Tho,theirs was pretty think...i think ive tried MUCH beta ones.Love the garoupa!!!Oh!and the drunken praws.Yumalots!haha...okay aniwae..getting down to the important part of the nite.I saw these 2 gals.One ish sec 2 and the other is p4.But the p4 one ish really purdy..she's taller than me and quite mature looking.he p4 one was wearing this blue dress wif this tranparent overcoat.Very sweet!Her Mum is SOOOO gorgeous!Her mum wore this black dress..loved her hair.Anyway..the sec2 one..she had short STRAIGHT black hair...specs..she was wearing this rather..flowery pale dress..quite mature(the dress i mean).Her Mum's kind of "modern" too.Their Mums were like hapilly citchatting wif my Mum and leaving me staring at the gals.They're VERY friendly.I was like so hapiee!!I was thinking wow...i FINALLY found cousins my age and they seemed pretty cool.Everything was fine UNTILL...their mums came to me and like"ur our cousin,our gals are ur nieces".

-faints-

YES!I am they're AUNT!!!*screams..sobs*The horror!I have a neice tt is OLDER than me.tell me is tt creepy or not?hai....BIG generation gap.Alethea was like screaming..shes 9..so..shes auntie to them as well.I have so many nephews and neices...One of my nephew ish...ah..well...his father is mi cousin.my cousin is 16...yep...his "wife" is 17.....they did..had....er...u get the idea.heh..heh..Im like so freak'n sad..i have NO cousin i can like..REALLY talk to...hai...

[few hours l8r]

erm..i confessed..to him............................................................................i dont noe if he really cares....hai...dunnoe wat to do...so now we've..confessed...are we...just....gonna stay like tt...or are we gonna go a higher level....feeling pretty low rite now....i really...love him..alot..i noe sumtimes get him like irritated and mad...im SO sorry abt it...AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH..what to do.....what to do...........all i noe....is i love him so much...and friends...just ...isnt good enuff to contain my feelings for him..... i only love u..no one else....pls don get the wrong idea.....................

i PASSED Chinese!!

2005-10-21T04:25:00.000-07:00

Aloha!
ive started a new blog tradition..to try making up a new greeting for every post.Yeps.Lol.Classes were BORING 2dae.I seriously think they shld just let us off for the hols already.We know our marks for the exams and now in class,we're just like staring at the ceiling or just reading...hai....Don get me wrong.I still am a bookworm...just...i dont have a book to read.I have read like everyone of the books in mi house.

Totally 4got abt P.E todae.So, Jackson,Pei Yi and miself had to like walk around the field twice as punishment.I seriously like Miss Xia,she's fair.And she told us to walk not run and she even like warned us abt the mud,and asked us to be careful.The punishment,was TORTURE.No,im fine wif walking,i cld even run if she wanted me to.Pei Yi was the torture.Sheesh!tt gal,she take Taekwando and smacks ppl in their ass and all tt.*wack wack wack!*Yep,and lil me ish still scared of insects.And can u believe this?She was like screaming abt the Mud.Oh Gosh.....i was like "-_- thruout the whole thing..she kept telling me to walk first at all the place where there was no mud so she cld follow where i walk and not step on the mud....WHAT IF WE WERE IN A JUNGLE?!SHE'D LET ME FALL IN QUICK SAND!!!what friend..."-_-wadeva...her shoes were like so..er...no comment lar.My shoes have sum material on it,so the water didn't seep in..her shoes..pish...even socks were muddy.Well,realzing tt...i purposely step al the muddy ones..heh heh*cackles*Only she realized and didnt trust me animore.But still,i had my way,everywhere she went,i was screaming "MUD!" and shed scream and really run into a mud puddle..HAHA*starts looking angelic*

Lalaz,had band.Im sick of Zodiac.Glad we're playing Shrek2,SpongeBob squarepants and Crazy little thing called Love for opening house.Cant wait.Love crazy lil thang called love.theres sum jazzy parts in it...so the sax really goes well there.Just totally crap'n during sectionals todae.the saxaphone section has gone B.Yep.
We're now the Baxaphone Section(lol).
Made of the Balto Baxaphone,Benor Baxaphone and Babitone Baxaphone.(HAHA)
Members:
Sec4-BingBongBell [Isabelle]
Bwarf[Felicia]
Baboon[ee hern]
Sec3-Bonehead[Lynn]
Bebe[Phebe]
Sec2-Bony[Su wei]
Borilla[Sujatha]
BubbleBish[Chia Min]
sec1-Bobo[Shu yu]
Banana[ME!]
Haha,arent we the crappiest peeps?

Cant help loving,us,the Baxaphone Section.NIAHA.hai..its the only time when im happy...just fall into the music,let Mrs Chua give her advice and Mr Chua's kindly face and tips during sectionals..i don have to worry..or be cautious.
Everytime when wif Ain or Iddy...i just...like get really cautious..and try to be all happy like i really am and try not to like the wrong things..but the more i worry and stay cautious...its like..the worse it becomes..i have nothing to say.Just when shes crapping wif Eka just now....just really felt at odds...i remembered b4,i was joking wif Eka and we 2 just crapping..tt time..and Ain just happie happie laugh laugh.Tt time Iddy hated me.Now...im just...quiet..Hai..our frenship isnt as strong or as deep as b4.Before...she always wanted our friendship to like go a higher level..at least...we like close in a way...now its just..like friend friend..nothing special now..she and iddy get'n close....Just really want to relax and hapiee happiee..carefree like Eka said i was.and just make 'em all laugh.Now...even wif Kel tts hard.B4 me and Kel..i was like always the joker..now i just bloody quiet...hai..dunnoe why ah...xian lar in skool sey...even now wif Kimmy...not much to chat...she just tok'n bout Hilary and Jewellry and Mango and Izah ...ai...summore i so not in touch wif the school gossip..like i care much aniwae...Now me and Ain...haiyah..everytime just say wadeva..u action like tt...when can we really have a REAL conversation....hai..whats the problem wif me..why cant i just relax..im just always so cautious wif them...ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH.*sniff*

i want a LONG holiday

2005-10-19T05:56:00.000-07:00

am totally pissed off rite now.Am just TOTALLY bored....was chatting to martin..WAS.COMPLETELY broke off all contacts wif Howard....i just cldnt take it animore.I noe hes totally angry wif me....Im sorry How,but..i just dont have feelings for u...and these past few daes..ur like not talking..everything's so dead.And i cannot stand to remember tt day...hai..i wished u neva felt tt way...totally killed our cool frenship.Hai........ive just lost a ONCE awesome friend.

Had band todae...i was "late"....wadever ar...i took taxi at like 8..so supposed to reach at at least 8:10 or even b4.But there was a major trafic jam and jonathan was like.."so,late ah".Hai....Syhieda(is this correct spelling?) and Sofie got like promo.Sofie?!tt fella everytime dont cum fer duty.Like tt considered...what say...Syhieda....hai..not unexpected.In duty wise shes good cause shes brave and does not mind telling off sec 4 and all lar.but..even Ain feels uncomfortable abt it.Azam just not happie..neither was Yi Tsiang....seriously...her attitude..sumtimes..hai...oh well.Pppl can change rite?Maybe this thing will help her like change or sumthing.Schhol tomorrow...How sucky is tt?Hai..it looks like i SERIOUSLY wont even have one week of hols wifout sumthing on...BAND BAND BAND....URGHHHHHHH!!!!and then prefect.....hai...tomorrow have to stay back for the crappy english go-thru-papers session.I seriously dont get it.Why just dont do it individually during lesson time?hey,it saves BOTH the teachers' and students' time.Friday also got Band.Getting sick of Zodiac...still loving Rhapsody.

Mum is going on her office retreat to China tour wif Dad...WHAT IS THAT?? and during the first week of school next year.....Come on guys,u noe we have no family members u guys can trust to look after us.U can just send Titia to Gabriel's house.Im fine living on my own.I wont burn down the place!HONEST!They are so not buying my excuses....hai...

Whats wif Martin and my being friends wif Ignatius?!hes just my friend..like u.....Igster is like fighting for his own gf..cause she sorta dumped him for another guy...and im just being a friend..hai...we just crap and like..comfort each other when things go down.We dont even chat in school...sheesh..what do u care anyway Martin..i dont understand u...even IF id di like him..what does it matter....hai...

been listening to everlife.they're cool.Love their voices.not as punkish as the veronicas..but they're still good.lala..chatting to Raizal agn...yep....well..gtg now u peeps...cya.Luv ya'll/

Laladay

2005-10-18T05:20:00.000-07:00

Hey peeps!
hai...havnt seen Ain or Martin todae online..so wanna apologize to Martin..im so sorry guy...U really are like the greatest fren to me..u help me wif probs..even when im the most stubborn....and the mean stuff i say to u..i dont blame u if u hate me...im so sorry...Trying my best to change my mood..
Ain AIN!!!!OMG!HOw cld i have said tt to u....?!Myu greatest greatest apologies..oo..u me other greatest fwen Ain....hai...

Toking to mi LOVE,Julz and DarL Iddy..LALA.Hey ELFIE online.lala.YEA!!!!im just so joyin'..EEE new word..sorta..Heh heh
still 12 download on mi skin..hmm...beta go "advertize" it....in other words..means...comment and rate others...den get them to rate and comment and DOWNLOAD mine.NIAHAH.Been playing Sims2 agn!!!AHHHH>PLASMA SCREEN TV.*cackles*my pathetic Sim still cant meet a guy...actually..alot of guys ar...but they all so ugly la.aiming one..but he like...so nerd ah..his shirt tuck in SOOOOO much.YUCK

toking to iggy...he doesnt appreciate tt im so kind and caring towards him.Hmppfalumps!!!!oh finally...he say thank you.lala.and muackz summore.K la.Iddy's being stubborn abt her "exciting" news...hai..probably isnt much la...we're nothing animore aniwae...Sending Iggie off so he can play his games.LoL.tt idiot..play games den leave me alone...but being the most gracious fwen of all,i still love him to bits.Lala.

EH!Yea..i half noe the truth!!!EH SO COOL>!!!!We all like linked sia!!!I kept laughing and screaming..TOO much of a coincidence..i love elfie and julz and iddy and ain to bits!!!as julz say,love tenfolds.NIAHA.Kiss kiss...ah me and Julz have date to spray mosquitoes and an EXTREMELY GIANT BUG=AZAM.
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
lala..happy happy moi.Im not just Joyin man...Im Beameringz!Yea!So cool...such a SMALL TINY WORLD.meeting and elfie and martin thru the weirdest ways.

lalaz....hai im so sleepy..got Band and Prefect stuff tomorrow.Nvm...got Julz and Ain wifs me.Tts all i nid to brighten up mi dae.

Oh Yea!Went Sakae at Parkway,celebrates Mum and dads 18Th anniversary!Seriously don get it.why bring us?....i make sure nxt year or sumthing..i send 'em to the river house boat at sentosa...the owner i noe..hes christsian..and on top...where my parents get the view..theres a jacuzzi and nice bedroom for too....hos tt?!YEA?!Cool rite?yep yep.den..ill send mi sis away to my aunts...and Keep the whole house for miself*cackles*oooo..im starting to love mi parents wedding anniversary.Ahh back to topic aniwaes...Sakae service..seriously sucked..so slow man....my Yakitori neva came...lala.didnt have soba..nxt time ar....lala.hai.yea couzies wedding sundae...cant wait..thou i dont think ive seen her....its so weird man..either my couzins are engaged or married..or just infats or irritating primary like mi sis..hai.....JOSHIe boy..i miss u like crap.How cld u go Idaho and leave me all here alone?!We've neva been able to be so long wifout each other since i went to Hong Kong..den eu left...what timing man.Oh yea.....puh lease..nxt time u get a gal..consult me..u say their hot..end up...eesh..dunt wnana talk abt it..alto the one u said who was totally bitchy was kinda hot..SEEK MI CONSULT BOY!!!i don care even if i just 6 mnths older den eu..ur still mi lil BABY couzie.NIAHAHAHAHA.U always will be=P

Im glad i have u DD God

2005-10-17T07:04:00.000-07:00

hmm..was in a totally bad mood just now.kept snapping at Martin and told him i didnt want to speak to him...did the same to Ain...just dont noe what came over me..den the most unexpected thing happened.I met this girl...elfie....she 14..when i found out the truth..i just totally felt God's Love for me..Im glad i have u Dd God.I wld be loss wifout u....i nid u so much.

Sims STRESS

2005-10-17T04:42:00.000-07:00

HEY YALL.
Im so freakn....er.....STRESS and Happie ar.=) happy cause u noe wat?I have my DD God's Grace and blessing.Yep.He lurbs his belovedee princess,er hem er hem*cough*,me duh~,BERI BERI BERI BERIBLY-UNACCOUNTABLYLEE much.NIAHA!New word!But alamak....so long sia.

eesh.

okay
heres the usual stuff
Mood:Hapwee and STRESS

oh yea!I stress...why?I played SIMS2 agn.Sia la.now so stress.My stoopid Sim ah.Got fired lar.Yea...den so hard to get bf sia...summore keep disturbing me go make her have WOOHOO.For those who dun play ...it means..........shhhhsssh.....*secret*HAHA

Oo yea!Blogskin update!!!
i Have 12 ppl who downlaoded it..in like...3 days..less than 1 hr.LOL.Im ACCURATE.LoL.

Pissh.....Iddy and Julz and Ain had fun todae.Glad for 'em=)ahhh....Ain's life is swit now wif her new "family" and iddy and julz..her new interests...yep.Iddys fine wif her stead relationship....yep.Julz...er?Kim has given up hope on him.(Girl i seriously think its for the better,he is just SOOOOOO not u.)Me?Well,im bloggin.Lol...with the i-have-no-bf-am-lonely issue,im starting to miss Jason.....so hard for me to admit but yea....I'll neva see him agn aniwae..totally thrown away every lil bit of contact i had wif him.Buh-bye my gorgeous eurasian model.

CME,total waste of time...english...did SHE even teach us on the clauses and stuff?i think just bit by bit...ah...All in God's hands lar.Totally Got me answers about not feeling Jesus's presence these few days..Dad says he's there u just gotta have faith.I love my dad to bits even tho we bite down each others necks when we have our brawls.

ah..chatting to Ain and martin now.Yep.....just realli bored and tired todae....heres the icon:

New skin2

2005-10-15T02:41:00.000-07:00

haha,yes.I changed skin agn.Last one,the music was corrupted and this was just so purdy i had to use it.

Okay,yes.I did watch disney channel.Duh~Lol.Its not childish.Its just WAY cute!Lala.Come on,im sure u guys watch too.=P

What was on:
9.00>Totally Spies(repeat)
9.30>Kim Possible
10.00>Jake the American Dragon
10.30>this REALLY cute mummie show.forgot the title.
4.30>What u call tt?winx or sumthing.Haha,the show like...how eu say?u so MANY advertisement seriously.A few 2 mins den advertisemnt.Wadeva sia.The show hahahaha..just so kental.

I think im gonna watch the suite life of Zack and Cody.I just love disney's comedies.I think i might do a can u fell the love tonight skin(lion king).Just so eva romantic.

Menu:
Breakfast>Ham and cheese thing frm QBread
Lunch>Ham,Bacon,Sausages,Bread,Soup,Salads.Yum!

Ain mixed this new beat todae,So funk-a-licious!I lurb!Oh yea!Updates about mi blog skin.Hold on a min,coping it.=P

this is ur first skin? wow!!...could u rate my skins too? pls...thanks....anyway, (5 stars)
Posted by: JJ[honeypies]JJ on 10-14-2005 @ 22:04:25

10 download,with an overall rating of 4.20!

AHHHHH!So hapiee sia!Kim says im making good progress cause its not even 24 hrs and i have 8 downloads.Hers had only 27 the most in 2 weeks!Plus,this mi first skin.Hahahaha.What can i say?Im a natural.Next one,im going Piratey maybe,or Egyptian.Kim says i have weird taste.HAHA.ive been looking at scar...er....how do u spell tt?I totally forgot.Its the pharoh's tombs.I just love the egyptian colours,the mysteriousness and ancient deepness.Pirates,Harr matey!Lol.hahahahahahaha.this gal on blogskins has been giving me really good tips and everything.Ive been meeting nice ppl there lately.lol.She's angella91.check out her skins.They really rock.
If u go blogskins,pls rate mi skin!heres the link:Modernbabe

Mood:Feeling just fine
Wearing:Pink doll shirt and blue shorts.
Tot:Egyptic tots.[Lol.new word.]
Listening:BoA-Best of soul album.dunnoe what song.Lol
Word of e day:Egyptic[HAHA]

If u guys have any blogskin theme suggestion,msn me!lala.And oh!If u guys wanna intro a new song/singer to me,pls do!Im in need of music.Chinese also don mind.Hehe.Im starting to get into the culture and everything but still preserving my englistinct.HAHA.NEW WORD!!!!I think i shld start a Hannah dictionary.ahhhhhh lala.Think im gonna compile Ain's beats into a CD,so when she gets popular,shell neva forget,how she started.Ah...memories.hehe.Im starting to play piano ALOT now.Ain got me hooked agn.she was like,she wants a piano music book wif nusery rhymes,den i started playing Long Long Ago agn.Haha.Im thinking of taking up lessons agn nxt year.Just wondering if i have the time...*groans*I remember i only played the piano b4 cause i didnt wanted to fail mi piano exams,but now,the piano calls for me every second.Im working on Night Journey now.Will keep u updated on the progress.LOL.After tt,i shall perfect my Fur elis.Den work on You gave book den will buy pop music sheets to play.Also really tempted to learn Electric Guitar.Heard tts wild and wacky.LOL.Perfecting My saxaphone.But i lazy to play ah.So dusty.tt stoopid school one like so rusty.Sound so Unclear.Freaking Freakish.

Wow!Type so much alreadi.And i tot todae nothing to type abt.Ive been staying at home and played the role of couch potatoe.Niaha.

Heres todae's Graphic,shld be icons tomorrow(found new site for MORE graphix!):

New skin

2005-10-14T08:01:00.000-07:00

The old skin had sum html prob.so i had to change it tho i love tt one to bits.this one is relaly sweet...but.....so don suit me.and i find it too...*shrugs*music file is corrupted so don bother listening.

u guys have any themes for my next premade layout?tag me and give ur opinion.Those who want the modern babe layout,its right here.

i was thinking like a graceful swan lake and a palace,but too fairytale like.hmm..guitars maybe?u noe what,just tag mie board allright.Don forget to rate my and comment on my blogskin tt i contributed.=)

hmm..my dad's cuming back.Mum and sis sleeping.ah...the stillness and quietness,i like that.
haha..den disney channel tomorrow morning alone.LALAla..what ah?kim possible,american dragon and totally spies ah?hahahaha.heres the cartoon.disney summore.

Ooo!Mickey stylo sia.oooo ahhh....
nxt week ish divider!!!Yea!What colour hmm?green?nah la...my blog so green alreadi.l8r attract cows.haiyah...*shakes head*HAHA

The Veronicas

2005-10-14T05:34:00.000-07:00

Hey guys!
Like the layout?so not mine but its pretty cool...tho..not exactly my fave but i love the veronicas and gives me a good chance to put their music up.Im so loving 4 Ever.*dances-COME WITH ME TONITE!!!...-oops!Okay..got so carried away.Haha.their other song is cool too!!Have to get their CD.I think i might do one on them sum times.Im thinking of randomnly popping out and doing sum fab layouts.That wld shock and just WOW the world.seriously,i posted the modern babe layout(mi previous) on blogskins,my first ever.and i am proud to say in less than an hour,3 ppl have downlaoded it(since i last check).YESH!Hold on a min,gonna check for more comments and post sum of them here.Gimme a sec*runs off*

BACK!
Ta da!
i'm suspicious. i don't believe you're a first timer! it's fab. :) (5 stars)
Posted by: epexegesis'D on 10-14-2005 @ 03:51:56

funky and girly..its nice!=] (4 stars)
Posted by: harlequin- on 10-14-2005 @ 04:21:01

just so totally proud man-gleams-

okay
Mood:Totally HAPPIEEE and PROUD!!!
Tot:im loving the veronicas
wearing:Red and Red
Listening:4 Ever0the veronicas

yep.Todae was like just stepped out of the door and screamed man.There was this tiny eeky 7cm long thingy on the floor.It was BLACK.horrendously BLACK.Totally DARK BLACK.I freaked!I almost stepped on it,and den*thunder*
i realized,it was my parents stoopid fish frm the claybowl to decorate mi corridor.This isnt the first time its done tt.*steams*Stoopid fish.I still don get why it was black tho.My mum was like running to get the net.My other one,we tot it was just sum like really common fish,turned out to be a koi....that one,dangerous man.Another had died and we were just going out so we tot we wld leave the bod there and cum home and clean up.Seems like the koi did it for us.There was nothing but the bone left.He didnt even spare an eye...*shivers*

Oh yea,and maths todae.It was so bug_in'.we only had one hour and like no calculators so i don think anyone finished.I didnt do the costructing part and and didnt finish the circle and box queessie.eeesshhh.....heard onli Joel chia finished.the dude's just so square.Heard Joel Sim's hair got cut my a teacher?i actually think it looks nicer....HAha.no,seriously.

Got kind of mad at Ain todae....why cant u just tell me why ur sad..ur always telling me wadeva hannah or nothing....hai...i seriously wonder what the term 'friends" mean....got on the worng foot wif martin todae....sheesh.Iddy and Fie Fie.LALA.

the Good news: ONLY 2 PAPERS LEFT!!!!BUT,IM ALREADY RELAXING.NIAHAHAHA.english is so..no biggie and CME?seriously i don get the point.How cna a piece of paper change a person's life...?

not much to blog todae.Shall update u on the blogskins process.

Ain's got me hooked back to playing piano agn.i think im gonna perfect all my old pieces and start wif new ones.*excited*LALALALA.Yea!

heres today's graphic!Dolls as i promised.Ill have cartoons next post:

Doesnt she have tt dont mess wif me im too coll fer ya look?heehee.
gonna go tag ain's bloggy now.Ciao!

5th post of the day

2005-10-13T05:21:00.000-07:00

wow.My 5th post of the day.

Wearing:Red s8r boi tee and flower printed shorts

Listening:Everything Im not-The Veronica's

Mood:Extremely mixed

Mood colour:Wavering dark colours(deep)

Current thot:Joshua(family matters)

i cant believe ive found found out this.How can i respect them as my grandparents,DD?

I siad exactly the same thing as my pa said,i cant believe their supposed to be family?How can we be family after all these years they hold a grudge.WHY DONT U ALL OPEN UR EYES.HUH?!

Osborn,Cynthia and Marjorie...

u guys are supposed to be my aunties and uncles...my father's siblings and twin,yet,u guys are like kids.So different!Tell me,no one of u can lie to the fact that u've commited adultery,cheatd on ur wives and husbands....what kind of people are u?Lying,scheming!

And Pheobe and Victor...

how can u be my grandparents?!Tell me,do u love me one fucking bit?!NO!Kong,ur supposed to be a man,yet u stay cooped in the house,letting mama brat at u and nag at u,why has she become the head of the house?!How can u be so pathetic...all my life i looked up to u,i always tot that u were a great man of honour,now i see ur nothing but a wimp!u cant see whats going in ur household,all the lies u told me.U neva loved me...how can u be family?How cld u not defend ur first grandson,when he was tortured...when ur american son-in-law said he wld break Josh's legs if he had that accident agn.U said u were worried for Josh in america..if he was over-abused.DEn tell me!!!!Why did u just sit there and watch when he was caned to a bleeding state?TELL ME!!!!!

And mama....u love us for the fucking green paper notes we call mpney.Tts all u nid.To make u the happiest woman in the world.

all of u!Open ur eyes!Godma,look at Dixon,he wants ur attention.He needs love.Jei,look at charlotte...she never had a mother..u ignore ur duty as her father.KoKO!how can u even be a mother.u favourtise ur children and over-abuse Josh...

none of u can say im being over-acting...i spent my whole life....frm when i was just an infant growing up with josh until i moved to HK.I saw what happened.I even took the caning frm u to lessen it on Josh,and my parents never caned me!I was struck once with the belt,the cold metal by my dad.But only once.Other than tt,they have never hit me in such a manner.

What is my dad going to do?we even feel like taking charlotte and now Josh too?cant u even look after ur own children?!What the prob with ya'll?!

Ur freak'n hurt my Dad's heart.U who are called his parents,u abandoned him,so tt he moved frm house to house..he feels hes neva had family.Im supposed to be ur blood and flesh,yet i feel nothing like tt....who are u.....

DD...this is the most broken family eva....

Lala2

2005-10-13T04:17:00.000-07:00

Dear DD God,

Its beginning to seem that i post like 3 times a day!!!im just so bored.Martin is just not online..u have no idea how much i miss u.Ains away on bro b.dae outing.Haiyah...im so Loneliee....Plus i still have tt gnawing feeling.The im-gonna-do-sumthing-crazy-so-betta-be-prepared feeling.Its the im-gonna-burst-out feeling too.I noe sumthings going to happen.Or i NEED sumthing to happen.i cant take it.. these past few days ive been really getting really high,i seriously dunt wanna sae half the things ive done.I stilll cant sleep welll!!!!eessh....what is wrong. just feel so unsatisfied...like im waiting..waiting....for sumthing i dont noe wat.every since tt day...*groans*i need to noe what went wrong...its killing me....but i cant go back wif him.It wont last,im only 13!!!but i still love likelike him...hai..if we're meant,its just not now.im giving up guys until im 17 or 16.

back frm dinner!now i noe what is wrong.Its been bugging me my whole life,but only now,My mom has put the truth right out to me,it strike right into my head.Like lightning.My darling Joshua,i love u so much.Don ever fret,don worry.My darling cousin,i love u so much.Don worry..be patient.Im coming for u one day,we'll go for our dreams like we promised ever since we were young.Hold on,keep ur ground.I noe my Mum and Dad will cum for u too.God Loves u so eva so much.oh my sweetie.....i noe the pain u go thru..i can feel it...u have always been my weak spot.Im cuming soon,we'll turn ur life around.All u need to know,is God loves u.Don care what shit ur earthly parents give eu.He's ur real family.Me My dad and mum and Titia are ur true family.Don worry we're coming for u.U don need to go thru this pain animore.Pray..Jesus is there for u.Don let the fire burn in u 2 deep,always remember that He took ur pain okay?Altho we're just cousins,ive always been ur friend,ur shoulder to cry on,ur sister and family u always wanted.shhh...don cry animore,don let ur heart falter.The rapture is very near...always praying and loving u my darling couzzy.

For Ain and Iddy

2005-10-13T02:11:00.000-07:00

For my darlings Ain and Iddy.

http://radio.disney.go.com/music/vtr/index.html?songID=AnytimeYouNeedAFriend

When you're sad
When your feelin' low
When you're hurt, and don't know where... to go
Think of meThere I'll be
Anytime you need a friend

When you're let downAnd your luck runs outOr if you're... in trouble or in doubt
It's okay
To Turn my way
Anytime you need a friend

(Chorus)
When you're scared, I will stay with you
When you feel you've fallen, I'll lift you
When your heart breaks, I'll ease your aches
Whatever it takes, I'm in
Anytime you need a friend
La, la, la, la, la, la, la, laLa, la, la, la, la, la, la, la

All our lives
Anywhere we are
Just reach out, I'll never be too far
Come what may There I'll stay
Anytime you need a friend

(Chorus)
When you're scared, I will stay with you
When you feel you've fallen, I'll lift you
When your heart breaks, I'll ease your aches
Whatever it takes, I'm in
anytime you need a friend
Oh, oh, oh When you need a friend
Come what may There I'll stay
Now until the very end
Anytime, anytime you need a friend
La, la, la, la, la ,la, la
Anytime
La, la, la, la, la, la, la
Whatever it takes
La, la, la, la, la, la, la
Anytime
I'll be there
La, la, la, la, la, la, la
Anytime you need a friend

Exams day 4

2005-10-13T00:46:00.000-07:00

Exams day 4
Maths Paper 2 and Literature

Day started out fine,tired as usual,no mood for eating AGAIN....hai.....anyway,went to skool changed seating places wif Michelle...u all ah.Think i still hate her.I really don bother a ll these bitch fights.Its no point get'n angry wif her.She's quite okay lar.Anyway sat behind Iddy infront of Sean and diagonally to Hans left.Iddy said she felt yesterdae so....like...no reason for her living...my darling,i have a reason for eu.So,if u wanna hear,tell me okay babe?Den just crapping with hans and Sean.Lol.We were toking abt lit metaphors and sean was like whats a metaphor.Den i gave an example"You are a cow"and me and hans were laughing away.Hey,he wanted to know what it was so i gave a fairly good example.LoL.

Did well thru math and yea Lit too.Wrote so much my finger blistered,plus my nails are so long and so when i gripped the pen,the nail poked my palm.Ouchy!Hai...wass with Ain?My dear fwen...why u dont tok to me?u and iddy now so close..and u talk to everyone but me....hai...nvm.tt isnt going to put me down.Im still happy.Bit by bit im changing into the happy cheerful BUBBLY ol me.Feels good.=)hee.Julz alreadi planned a date for us babes to hang....aiyah..u all ah.but after skool,still wearing skool uniform,so NOT nice.
Oh,just b4 lit.N2 guys....gues what?SPIT AT MOI! HOW DARE THEY!!!!!Thank God only my hand got it,cause Iza and Kim like got spit on their hair..they sort of shielded me.Heh heh.XD

u guys scrub hard k?LOL...sheesh what is wei kangs prob man..everytime i see u,ur like spitting EVERYWHERE.What is it wif u and saliva man.So unhygenic.See la Iggie..u and ur friends....Thank u hmm.*steams*do one more time..and u die.

Studying Science Biology rite now.Have to like..."refresh myself"on the topic.haha.Im cxool with the Uvais Physics...so terrible at Ms Chua's physics.Brush up on Chem too.So much to do,so Lil time.Peesh,no one's online to chat to.Still no sign of Martin.Hmm..guy where are u?Hope nothing bad happened.Miss chatting wif u.I miss eu.lala.No one i usually look forward to chat to online nowsadays...

Came home,i was hungry-crazy!But because of these few days food prob i tot i might not eat agn...just see and start getting sick of looking at the food den dun wanan eat,but,praise God...i ate all the bee hoon on mi plate AND yakori and chocolate sticks.Yum!Oh and a glass of wat3r and lemon tea and prawn crackers.HAHA.Lalalala! I can eat agn!!!!

Okay,heres today's glitter image.Ill use dolls tomorrow.

Yea!I have courage cause i have The Lord.Dum de dum!Thank You DD God for this blog to put my days happenings to rest and recount the day to u even when u see me thru everything.Ish Spending quality time wif eux that rox!

Exams Day 3

2005-10-12T03:57:00.000-07:00

Okay yesterdae nite,care grp as usual.Man,those 2 really made the place go havoc man.I was like really mad at the older one and he got so mad at me...he complained to his Mum.Dude,seriously...GET A LIFE!!!!!! ur so spoilt,im teaching u a lesson.Next time,i give u an order young man,u had beta listen!!!!
i was so freakn angry didnt have time to play wif the baby...aww...he's CUTER THAN EVER!!!oooo...chubby cheeked lil wide eyed button nosed babieee....My son MUST be cuter than that.=))
yesh..i probably one a boy first...girl also don mind...den maybe twins...cute huh?twins are like...one boy one girl.Yep!*sighs and dreams*
okay,anyway,back to the topic.This new guy in the care grp..man is he...i dunnoe.He really caused a big upset,my dad was so angry wif him.Usually,when caregrp have their fun and break like at 9 30,but they hadnt even finished talking at 10!!!!!the guy was like asking so many questions..he had ALOT of bitterness in his heart.Mum says when his Mom died,he called the church and they wldnt do anything fer him when he asked them come pray for her.BUT...he called when they were sleeping!!!!and his mom was like frm another church so my church really cant do much abt it.halo,it was like 2 a.m when u called them.and u say their mean....."-_-....wadeva....i was so tired and the baby was sleeping on mi bed so dont wanna disturb him..so i went my mom's room to knock out.Mom woke me up hours l8r and this morning she said i drooled last nite..andw hen she told me last nite..i laughed and went to my room....
yea rite..*rolls eyes*i don remember anything.hmmppphfalumps!!!

Okay had like Geography and Chinese Paper 2 exams todae.The geog,they put like so many weird scenarios in it........it was relaly mixed...i really cldnt even get it man....and im supposed to be good in geography!!!URGGHHHH.Okay Chinese...there was like 1 close passage and 4!yes 4! compres.the 3rd one man.....i cldnt understand,even Selina and Kimmie agreed.Can u believe this?during the exam,Ms Lim Ah Joon just came outta no where and asked me what were the names of diff subject teachers......EXCUSE ME WOMAN!!Im in the middle of an examination...ur the TEACHER...what is WRONG wif u???!!!and nvm la....when i told her the name..she can still...got such a teacher meh?u must be joking...she seriously has no sense of appropriateness and time.
Haha...den chinese exam...All the boys were like Azam don lie when he raised his hand for malay paper...HAHA.the teacher really tot he was lying sia....OMgosh!HAHAHAHA=P
after the paper,was like taking my back..and cleo was blocking me....and behind me got sum1...i was like so stuck there man....then IGNATIUS!!!!!!!U and ur lame jokes..still tapping me...!!!!hmmph~!!!aiyah..nxt time..u want..say hi not tap and pretend sum1 else did it.

Ain ain ain....don be sad la.u dont want to tok just cause we tease u....c'm on.im sorry...didnt noe it really cut u....=) cheer up.we nid to hear ur cute lil voice.
hmm..so bored on msn.Martin?!where have u been man?i need a fren to tok to!!!!*grumbles*
Mrs Fie fie iddy is crazy over....Fie fie lar!duh~
Julz....aww..i lurb u eberyday....crazy bout dunnoe who.
ah well..and Taufik,Man,i really had a bad impression on ur first,but turns out u realli nice.Hope we can be beta friends!~
Life's good!!After exam,i have to go out and spend time with Ain and iddy and HAVE FUN!!!!Call Julz ah...aiyah...she too busy with her bf lar.Haha.

Had lond John's for dinner..YUM~ and those..grilled jap chicken on sticks.I really have an idea to do a sunset layout...(my fave thing in de wrld!Oh wait!My darling chocolate,i havnt forgotten eu!)or maybe a sort of romantic black one with rome and romance....blood red roses..candles...mmm....love is always in the air around me.Lala.Cause i totally feel loved my DD God!heehe~

Song?

2005-10-11T04:49:00.000-07:00

Im not sure if you wld call it a song,it isnt the one i described in my previous post, but...i was looking at all 'em blogs...and their post..abt me....and.....yea...,just felt i needed a little boost and sumthing to drown it all out...

wish i cld turn back time
to where we had fallen out
i made a foolish mistake..
and lost you..

ur were the jewel in my life,
tt special someone
you stole my heart away
and i loved u like no any other

wish i cld turn back time
change what wasnt meant to happen
and den i wldnt have broken ur heart
u wld have still loved me...

yea.see.much beta...i think....hmm...truthfully u guys...i dont even noe what happened....ain and him was like don be sad,be happy..den im like yea..im not sad..im cool..and deh he said why are u like dis,i hate it....just that...faster than u cld snap ur fingers.....it all ended.....but what did i do?i don get it..the whole time i was trying to explain him that i was fine...and all of a sudden....just like tt...hmm..maybe one day..maybe we'll get back together.
for now,i LOVE CHOCOLATE
and now mi mission is to compose tt song.I think im going to make a video fer it to,maybe get sum peeps to like jump and dance fer me...=))

*jumps*
wee...oooo...lala.if u guys got any inspiration,i wld welcome it lods!!!!and be REALLY really grateful!Lala.

IM NOT DEPRESSED!!!!!!

2005-10-10T23:21:00.000-07:00

Day 2 of examinations
History and English(compre)

Todae,my zip like...i dunnoe..i probably sat and it came down lor.OMG!!!!so embarrassing...*shivers*so do NOT want to go further into the subject.

I cldnt study the WHOLE day yesterdae.....brain block,had too much on my mind.I was kind of worried todae....im really terrible at History and failed last test,seriously tot was gonna fail todae,but,THANK JESUS,all the stuff i studied,was in the exam.*dances*Daddy God,u rock mi wlrd!!!

i was having a giant headache,i cant sleep these past few days...pray tonite ill have good rest.Anyway,the headache followed me thru recess...and i really...i cldnt think properly...they think im depressed....seriously..u guys,i was sad yesterdae,but tts over.When sumthing bad happens,sure,u shldmlook on the brighter side,but hey,i was making myself go thru all that quickly,so i cld recover faster....and u guys still think im sad...and den Julz came and Iddy was toking to her abt guys and all dat...den Ain just sat,listened and laughed.That headache really bumped me....plus i was just so lonely....u guys tok abt stuff i dont noe..and u speak in malay...If i start a topic,u guys wld just shrug off or like give me the i cant be bothered look...den went back up to class....u guys like ignore me...den i came to sit with ya'll and u speak in malay..i have this feeling it was abt me..u kept giving those looks...

im starting to get like really pissed...u guys dont want to tok to me...im damn freakn lonely...and when i was sad....u guys just kept like...as tho i commited a crime...say i freakn ya'll out.BUt im fine now and u guys are like..i dont noe what u guys want frm me anymore.I just dont think u want me in ur "click" animore...im starting to feel left out and as tho sum extra piece.im sick of being quiet and just staring...cause im not tt kind of person..i like to talk..and be happy..talk crap and all dat..joke wadeva....i cant be sum1 im not...im very tired..this isnt me.....ive neva felt so diff and left out and alone in my WHOLE life..ive always had friends..im a very animated person...

and,IM NOT SAD!!!!!!*steams*

life has to move on..i noe....im fine now but u guys keep insisting....i cant take this animore..i want to be able to talk freely and smile..laugh..joke....

this year....ive neva felt so friendless eva.....oh 6/6,i miss ya'll...
Dav,Viki,Jo...Edwardy and Hong Rui bro....haha...crappy daniel...and ever tall samuel....i miss all that....amanda....basia the crazy(HAHA).....samantha dragonfly..Hahaha!Thian shun and wengloong.....nicholas frankestein...JUN KAI!!!(i almost forgot u)my ever crappy fren.....i miss crap'n wif u as we walk home and bully edward.LALALA

I was so bored todae...now i have no one to chat to on msn...i think he hates me....its just not the same..
no NEW GOOD songs for me to listen.So i got so freak'n fed up,i did sumthing i havnt done in a VERY long time..i played the keyboard....its so dusty...have to find a day to clean it.I was trying out the you gave book with all my church compositions inside..it just isnt the same,i need a real piano!!!!!!keyboard has tt really electric sound...hmm....am thinking of composing a song...havnt done tt in ages..i remember my mum accidentally chucking all my other compositions into the bin...shoot.
looking for inspiration.I dont want a sappy love song,or a sweet friend thingy...
this is so far my description(somewhat there):
-Fun
-Sufficient amnt of noise
-Jumpy tune
-Totally to like really make a fun crazy happy mood to cheer the sad ones.
sometimes its good to cry,to let it all out, so in ur tears,ur pain will flood out.that usually does the trick fer me.cause i realize i cant find a nice jumpy song tt lets u let go of ur feelings..so yea.Hey,im doing the community a service.*salutes*

Okay,big deal.My dad bought....this......thing....its like....a mini computer dictionary...mp3.....teaches u japanese....korean and chinese....i think has sumthing abt videos..colour ..everything....he bought it totally for MY use!!!!Why is he so nice these days?he even got me this book strap,its black with lavendar flowers on it.its beautiful....maybe hes just happy that he and my mom are gonna have their 18th anniversary like on the 2oth october.that is definately sumthing to celebrate!!!!and after all these years...their still in love,seriously..they still kiss each other good nite...okay..im not going into details.....it freaks me.but all the same,its so sweet.Me and my future husband...MUSt be like tt...to be grandparents and still love each other..4ever and eva and eva and eva and eva...on and on and on....

New Life

2005-10-10T03:01:00.000-07:00

Mmmm!
That flood,its no more.I love u iddy and Ain!
i loved him,i still admit,i do still.But we just arent meant to be.a part of him will still be wif me,but,im glad,its not the end of da world.
History exams tomorrow!
lalalala.
Ain,Iddy...u two really rock mi wrld.Without u 2,haha...well.wldnt want to think what happened!Lil Bev,Ur PSLE over~cant wait to see u at dare!haha..happy playing ur maple.LOL!
I love mi life!
tho ive gone thru much and lost what was most precious to me,still,lala,nvm la.Got Daddy got eberything!lalalala

2005-10-08T06:02:00.000-07:00

Lyrics to Say Something Anyway.I have been hearing this song for 1 year alreadi..and i still love it.Performed By Bellefire,written by i dunnoe who.Fave is Ciara

members are Ciara and Cathy(sisters) and Kelly.
www.bellefiremusic.com
go under video section and listen to say something anyway.

Some say hearts
Grow silent
In a world where no one cares
Love keeps slipping away
Some say time
Is the healer
But in a house where no one speaks
love keep slipping away
Tell me
Why do we fight when we know it's all wrong
Why do we play that same old song
Is it just because
We're lonely
Love me, love me
But don't be sorry
Help me, chase the shadows away
Love me, love me
When you've got nothing to say
Say something anyway
Some say tears
Run dry but
In my heart I've cried forever
Only you can take it away
Tell me
Why do we fight when we know it's all wrong
Why can't we see what's going on
Is it just because
We're lonely
Love me, love me
But don't be sorry
Help me, chase the shadows away
Love me, love me
When you've got nothing to say
Say something anyway
Anything to break the ice
Anything at all
Anything to break the ice
Anything at all
Love me, love me
But don't be sorry
(Oh), love me, love me
But don't be sorry
Help me, chase the shadows away (the shadows away)
Love me, love me
When you've got nothing to say (you've got nothing to say)
Say something anyway
Help me chase the shadows away
Love me, love me
When you've got nothing to say
Say something anyway.....

From left:Kelly,Cathy and Ciara(eek!)

2005-09-30T23:34:00.000-07:00

Hey u all!Like the layout?
i made it miself!
im not exactly an all day modern gal...but ah well.it seemed preety cool for a theme.
i checked out this video by Sabrina Bryan frm the cheetah girls.Its a fitness video she's doing with artists singing and dancing.this is the one she does.it called BYou.Its VERY nice!
go find it.If i can have it here, of course i will.
As soon as i change layout,im gonna put it on blogskins for yall to use.ill probably make a mocha one for my next layout.Lol.
i was pretty lazy to make one,but ah well.....i gave up cause all the blogskins one didnt suit me and made my own.=P

lalalalala...

2005-09-26T02:44:00.000-07:00

okay todae, went to school..yadee yadeee ya.

okay,so i totally like forgot to bring flights of fancy so i went to e6 to like borrow the book.I was standing there talking to Lynette, waiting for Illya cause Lynn had passed the bookiee 2 her.Den, famous Mr.Ignatius tapped me on the shoulder* i think* and when i turned my head to see who, he pointed to one of his friends and was like all"My friend did it".Iggy,pls cum up with better pranks.Ur still stuck in the 20th century.

Okay,so i went down for recess and recieved bad news!Glenda(my prefect mentor) said i had to do 2e6 duty!I was like nonononono.i mean sec 2?!Who wld bother following my insturctions let alone listen?!ARGHHHHH!All the guys were like "go away we so dont want u here".For Goodness sake,who in their right minds wld even want to be there?!

After duty,walking back to class, we passed one of the 'to-be senior prefects' and she siad we didnt need to do sec 2 classes cause she knew there was communication prob.!*drops on kness*Thank Jesus man!Anyways..at least during duty get to talk to Glenda more lar...she actually beri nice.we laugh and laugh...lol.laughing at me most of the time.

I m such a ditz!I tot Chinese test was today and was like cramming the whole yesterday evening and turns out its tomorrow!Nvm!I tot Li test was tomorrow,but it was today!ah well.I have more time to study!Thanks Daddy God!

Ms Lim was like freakn angry wif us cause during LC everyone was like walking around the class as tho she wasnt there.So as punishment, we had to like stand so long waiting for her to open her mouth and den she was like go to the lobby,sit according to register number and mark attendance.We waited for her...she walked away and came back.Fine la.she tok like 5 mins and she said we were off.

You cldnt imagine how happiee i was.I screamed "im Free" and jumped right into Kimmys Arms.lol=p
we went to downtown..yep.bubble tea(honey and milk obviously) and McChicken.Illi was with us.When we were walking there,this BIG grp of sec 3/4 guys saw us and then huddled in a circle.I was thinking what on earth they were doing and once we walked past them, they jumped and left their circle and were screaming and laughing..then they were like "something bag mei nu".Kim was like trying to figure out wich one of us they meant.Im like i dont care,none of them are cute anyway.Illi just giggled and kept quiet.LOL.Illi,u are such an angel.DOesnt Kimmy just lurbs boys attention!?LAlalalala...

Hai...

2005-09-21T06:36:00.000-07:00

Lol. a song to go wif a blog=P
don i cum up wif just the most ingenius ideas?LOL!
hope ya'll like e song.

hm mm...when will she ever realize im here for her....ive ALWAYS been here.
hai..mayb we nid sum space...i think i shld avoid her 4 a while.it makes life tiring.

4 Ever

2005-09-08T03:57:00.000-07:00

Hey peepz!
okay i noe..i noe...u guys have all been pestaring me to update my bloggy.hee=)well here ya go.
i have much to tell...but those were other days..and well..im not in the mood to tell abt past stuff..so yea.

only i have to say, I HANNAH YAP ALMOST MUDERED OW CHIA MIN.Muhahahahahha...
everyone clap!!!!heeheee....see.i told ya.Chia min, if i murder u, every1 praise moi.Niahahaha.

okay..im so into this new song i came upon by chance.
Its called 4Ever by The Veronicas!
Omy gosh!It rox sooo much!i just love the beat..and the nice mood-elavating voice of the lead.She is way Gud.Check it out sum time okay?if i can code it.I will definately!

i have lodsa hmrk..so im just gonna leave it like that yea.
Ill cum back l8r..maybe to change my blog layout.say bye bye to Leann Rimes!-waves-

i got sum new affliates.check 'em out sum time.=)

I noe in the poll i said i wld make my own layout...but im sorta posphoing tt till i go get a new photoshop.
im so irritating Mummy to get it 4 me.hee.*evil grin*

so no layout with pics of urs truly.Tho it was most highly rated.Which is funny..cause i put tt as a joke.I tot no one wld rate.
second ish chocolate i think.but im not into chocolate.So haha..sorry for wasting ur time voting but im not gonna do on any of tt.

anyways...i gotta go bathe now.

i f u all wanna noe why i didnt post,its cause i was busy wif my new guild..but heck..the gal i was to make it with became leader.and she made me co-own.wadeva-rolls eyes- anyway..guess..what?today..she left guild and transferred ownership to me..after telling every1 to leave guild cause it was closed.GRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so she left the garbage for me to clean up!And im so freak'n angry..shes like..what..only 11?

and she is soooooo bossy!
gerl get an attitude change.babe,u aint got frenz like tt.

Just another day?or the burning of another rope?

2005-08-30T03:27:00.000-07:00

She wrote about me in her blog and i already knew that before she even typed it.I knew she would...
she used she to refer to me,just as i am using now...i knew it was me..

She thinks im being unfair.She hates me...
But why cant she see...why doesnt she noe what i feel.
No matter what,she'll always treat Selina as her best friend.She likes her more than me.She says so herself. Most of my friends are changing..and they're leaving me.Im stuck on the same wind..I think....i think i shall just keep to myself from now on.She happier with Selina...and all that...she wants Selina not Hannah and im not selina...so no matter what she wont be happy wif me anyway.

she says im unfair but hey...its like wass the deal....anyway ill just do duty for recess...finish off go hall....after school band..just.....find sum other band members.....or stay wif Kel or sumthing.

i have so much to say....but...hai....

lets just keep it at this.

Happieeee B.dae Iddy!

2005-08-26T21:03:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IDDY DARL

my dear,you have turned 13 todae.And also u turn prettier everyday and grow taller everyday too.=]
no matter how much older u get ill still remember my cute pretty darL iddy.fun.May u stay like tt.=]

heee.....im now doing the project that my really unfair teammates left me to do.so sad huh...
ah well.freewebs is really slow and the page take 4eva to upload.Must pray for ms.Liong.ahahahaah

the music so touching..i love the piano playing
Haiz..sho nice....melodiaous.

Later D.A.R.E....shld i go?im so lazy.
plus,it takes forever to just reach there.hai..everyday go out...

Sept holidaes got band...HOME-ED class summore and if not rong, prefect camp...urghhh

to U- u always don seem to want to chat.Sumtimes i wonder if u really care for me.Or is it just the love u wanna have..hear care and sweet words. that pleasentness to noe sum1 is there for u when u want her.i cant make up my mind abt u.Sumtimes i wonder if to leave you. Would my life be better...wld it make any difference at all?

if i left you today, would you cry?

would you think about me all night?

or even remember the scent of my love

would you tell me sincerely

the love u have for me.

undying,unchanging love

love tt is meant to be

a guy that loves me

loves me true.

i await the day he comes.

but...are u,he?...

if i leave you...

would i miss my chance with he?

what if u arent?

den why does my heart cry so

is this true love?

or just..make-believe?

get'n scolded for nuts.

2005-08-26T06:31:00.000-07:00

okay.

so today was just like every other average day.
BUT...its is my day so its more interesting

went 4 P.E todae.Played basketball -
my team>Iddy,Ain,Syhiedah and moi.
against>Michelle,Amelia,Cleo,Yin Yi

yep...okay well.We started playing.For sum reason this time i was so scared of the ball.
things were rather boring but still okay UNTILL
her highnesses Cleo and Yin Yi went to sit down, and invited he boys to take their place.Oh yea..playing wif Joel and Ju zhong spiced yp the game,

but HEY soon, Sen Kiat and Jackson and Sean were taking over the court.We were so fed-up,me and ain, so we sat down and just complained.

Teacher asked why the boys had cum into our game and they said we werent playing but sitting down so they took over.So Ms Xia asked who were those sitting down.of course me and ain stood..but before we could tell her that Because the boys ad taken over our game tt why we sat, she cut us off and we got scolded.

urghh....i tell you.life is soooo unfair sumtimes.

Ms Liong is chasing me for my grp's website project thingy.......urgghhh!!!
my grp ppl arent any help.even tho they are my frenz.as usual,here i am stuck wif doing everything.it wld be more fun to do wif ppl who TRY.
i tot because my grp members were frenz,wed get along fine and cld work together..but NO.
and i have to finish everything by monday.a one month june holiday project..done in 3 days.i ask you.

I thank God he has seen me thru all my troubles.

wambuledeedo da

2005-08-25T05:31:00.000-07:00

Today i recieved my Chinese results.

i failed but improved! Hah!I'll show that Ain.
Than she shall have to treat me to Mac's next exam.LOL!

isnt this blog nice?its new so no dirtying it.Heh heh
i added the music miself.frm musicvideocodes.com.Rox aint it?

ah..today i so xianx man.

so no feeling until during home-ed,i practically sprayed half the whole bottle of pepper on the chicken.Major embarrassing.urgghhhh..not my day

nvm that.i was walking to white sands with kimmy when i came across the most unpleasent secret.I was so freaked.i was like screaming the whole walk.It is a secret i trust myself to keep and for the sake of the people involved.i actually spied on them.ewwwwwwww..............so freaky-shakes it off-

okay den just now.i was like sooooo moody.and i was like chatting to ignatius.Man i was so mean to him.sorry guy.seriously didnt mean it.ur lodsa fun..i didnt mean wot i said k...ouch.